Anything For Love

Chapter 49

"Ooh babe can we go to the mall?" I asked excitedly pulling at Brian's sleeve.
"Sure Toni whatever you want" he said, a bit annoyed.
"Why are mad? Why are you always mad?" I asked, getting upset
"Me? Always mad? Girl you trippin" He said keeping his eyes on the road.
"You are such a negative person, you know that" I told him while staring out the window.
"Yea, whatever"

We walked through the mall side by side but not looking at each other at all. The mall was almost closing so, lucky for us, not many people were there.

"I'm going in here" I said walking into Osh Kosh Begosh to find some baby clothes for one of my friends babies. I walked through the store and looked at all of the adorably tiny clothes. As I was looking at a pair of tiny cargo shorts and a tiny red shirt, I heard one of the sales ladies talking to a customer nearby.
"Do you need any help?" The lady asked.
"Oh no we're fine" the guy said.

As I was processing the familiar voice, I then realized exactly who it was. I slowly turned around in the most frightened way possible and met eye to eye with the last person I would ever possibly want to see. I winced, immediately looked downward and quickly rushed out of the store. Before I knew it, the river of tears began and they showed no signs of stopping.

"Babe...babe what's the matter?"
"Nothing I...I just want to go home" I said walking out of the mall and into the car.

I spent the car ride crying into the headrest with slow r&b jams playing on the radio. The sounds of the rain beating against the car windows was the soothing music to my ears as I felt my heart slowly breaking the more I thought about what I saw. As we pulled into the driveway I knew Brian didn't know what to say. He would start sentences then just cut them short and then apologize like the confused male he was and honestly I couldn't blame him.

"Do you want me to- uh never mind my bad"

I walked into the house and went straight to the bed. I buried my face into the pillow and poured my eyes out. I tried my hardest to mask my weeping which obviously didn't work because I heard Brian say:

"Babe do you wanna talk about it?" He asked while rubbing my back.

I shook my head.

"Are you sure? It'll make you feel better. I promise" He said still rubbing my back.

I turned over in the opposite direction of  him so I wouldn't have to face him this way. He got off the bed and walked over to my side and sat down next to me and kissed me on the lips.

"I love you so much and I just want you to feel better that's all" He said beginning to rub my back again.
"I-I know baby...I just can't r-right n-now" I said beginning to cry all over again.
"Ok I understand." He said laying next to me and wrapping his arms tightly around my waist.

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The next morning, I slowly rose out of bed and felt my feet land on the ice cold tile. I headed to the bathroom and looked at the sad mascara covered woman looking back at me. I brushed my teeth, washed my face and tried to get ready for the day ahead of me. I walked into the kitchen and began making something for breakfast. After I was done, I made myself a refreshing banana strawberry smoothie with kale and cinnamon. Yea I know it sound gross but it actually is sooo delicious. I went back into the room and kissed Brian until he woke up just as he does to me every morning.

"What a great way to start the day" he flashed his perfect smile at me. "So how are you feeling?" He asked. "I'm feeling like I just lost an eyebrow from your breath" I laughed and walked back toward the kitchen. "Oh so you think you're funny huh?" He asked brushing his teeth.

We ate and joked around together until of course he asked me the question I've been avoiding all along.

"So what happened the other day?" He said looking me into the eyes. "Um what do you mean" I tried to act oblivious to his question. "Oh come on babe, you looked the saddest I've ever seen you walking out of the mall yesterday and I don't ever want to see you like that so just tell me" He said holding my hand. "Um...uh well, you remember that guy I told you about...K-K...the one that starts with a K" I said not being able to even speak his name. "Yea I remember that dumb ass nigga. What about him?" He asked clearly getting upset. "Babe please calm down...anyway I um I seen him at the mall yesterday with some white girl buying baby clothes." "Wow first this nigga tried to fight me in front of my girl and now he-" "Wait, who do you think I'm talking about?" I asked alarmed. "That nigga babyhead or something" he said. "No no no, not him the guy I seen was...was um K-Keri" I barely managed to get out. He froze and sat there staring blankly into space. "WHAT THE FUCK! HOW DID THIS NIGGA EVEN GET OUT OF JAIL! NAH FUCK THIS IM CALLING MY HOMIES AND-"
"Babe...babe I didn't even get to the worst part. The girl he was with um... she was pregnant" I uttered and silent tears came running down.
"Oh wow..babe that sucks" He said hugging me. "I-I just don't understand how I was there for him, I loved him and no matter what I said or did I was never enough for him but at the first sight of some no lip having ass snow bunny he was quick to knock her up. I was willing to give him all of my love and dedication and even give him a family but just as every other relationship I've been in, no matter what I do or how much I try, it's n-never going to be enough." I sulked into his chest as he soothingly rubbed my back.
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"Hey babe who was that girl staring at us at the mall"
"Nobody Savannah, just shut up and get into the car." He said starting the car. "Keri, you said you would be nicer to me...for the baby" she said grabbing his hand. "You're right honey...I'm sorry" He apologized giving her a kiss. "So who was it?" She asked again. "It was just one of my exes" He answered. "Oh ok but why did she look so scared?" She asked. "Oh our um breakup didn't go so well" He said smiling deviously. "Oh well you should try meeting up with her to talk about it" She suggested. "Oh that's exactly what I plan to do"