My Secrets & Randomness III

I hate myself so much right now

I could have taken Friday off and missed Explorers.

I could have done it.

But noooo, I just decided to take today off in the morning.

I was complaining so much and my mom was like, "You can take a day off another time."

And at the time, I completely forgot about Explorers so I insisted on taking today off.

And I'm so pissed off with myself. I could have had an extra day for the weekend, could have slept late on Thursday, could have missed Explorers.

But stupidly, I decided to take today off.

I emailed my Head Of House a week ago about Explorers and even though he had arranged a meeting, I decided not to go. It's because he's the first teacher I've ever told about my social anxiety, and it's just awkward as I've told him something that I've been trying to conceal from my family for nearly five years.

But I'm determined to talk to him tomorrow during lunchtime and get into another Explorers group. Preferably Zumba/Body Combat to be with the bish fish, who also dreads Explorers.