Love On Purpose(Complete)

Mr and Mrs Vanderbilt👫

Dylan's pov-
(Ava's wedding gown in the pic)

Today I'm marrying Ava.I don't know how I feel right now.... every one thinks I hate her....but do I????

I'm telling myself this thing since these last four years.Hell I even told her that I hate her.I want to but I just can't.She is all I want.I searched for her everywhere when she left.After finally one year...I found her but my pride got the better of me.

Me being the stupid assh*le kept myself here in New York pretending to hate her when all I feel is exactly the opposite.

The truth is I want to know why did she leave.Does she not love me enough?but I know that's completely absurd.Even a blind person can tell she loves me.She always has.Still does.

The miscarriage had a very drastic effect on me.I was devastated.I hadn't really moved on after our first daughter's demise and then I lost my sister.My sweetheart had a miscarriage...Our baby.We lost our kid again.Little did I know there was big surprise waiting for me.

When I saw the twins...I was so angry.Angry at myself.Angry at Ava.Why did she not tell me.She just escaped.Left me to endure everything alone.

I know it wasn't exactly her fault.After the miscarriage I didn't know how to face her.If only I hadn't blamed then all this wouldn't have happened.

Our third baby would have been alive too.

I became distant from her and started spending my time with Amber to keep myself from everything.I know it was wrong.Ava needed me the most but I was ashamed of myself.Amber was having problems with Jason so I found an excuse to be a coward but it was just twice.Not more than that.All the time was actually spent near Rachael's grave.

When I finally realised my mistake one day.I ran to her.My darling ....but it was too late...she was gone already.

After that day...I became like a workaholic zombie.I did not talk to anyone in my family.They knew I was not strong enough to discuss about that.

I made everyone believe I hated her.But I didn't.I love her more than my life.She's my lifeline.

When I saw her in the mall.I wanted to kiss her,hug her,i Just didn't want to let her go.So I did what I thought was the best...which I know wasn't exactly the best.

I blackmailed her into marrying me.The god knows I want her. And with the kids . They are my kids man!how can I ever let them go.I can never.She's mine,the mother of my kids,my soon to be wife,my life.

I have specifically told everyone in our families not to bother her about the past.I will find out eventually why she left.My Ava won't leave me willingly.I know that.

I know she's very upset right now.But it won't be long when that gorgeous face will hold the breath taking smile that I love.I'll make sure of that.It's just that I'm angry that she left...

And.... Amber.Well I told her not not to be near Ava.I know what ever happened in the past was something related to her.I Just didn't know what.I don't really talk to her now.

Scott can't come to my wedding.. he's stuck in London with his mother's new husband.He really has a crazy family.His step father just went broke so he went to help him with his family business.For his mother's sake.

Plus it is all too sudden so when I informed him about this he went into mental trauma.Poor guy.

He will meet us directly in Newyork during our wedding party because this wedding is a private affair including only family and close relatives.

So our parents decided to throw a party to announce our wedding.

I am excited for this wedding.I bought everything of Ava's choice.I remember her staring at gowns in her sister in law's Nicole's wedding magazine when they were planning their wedding.