It's sunday. The last day in Die's house, fortunately. I can finally go home. The day passes without a lot happening. Die and me don't talk to eachother. Today's task is to pack and move to my house in the evening. I'm very tired. I haven't slept all night. I was and still am confused, scared, and I don't know what to think, feel or do anymore. I thought about harming myself all day, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. Afraid that Die would come in, afraid that I might kill myself, because right now I don't know what I can do to myself if I don't pay attention. Although I don't know why I shouldn't do it. It's probably too cruel to do that in Die's house with his brothers and mother home.
It's about eleven o'clock in the evening. Die says goodbye to his family, I thank them for everything and we go to my house. When I open the door, my mother runs to me and hugs me thight. 'Shinya, honey, I'm so glad you're back! I missed you so much, how are you?!' I just smile a little awkward. 'Hi mum.' 'And you must be Daisuke then. Nice to meet you.' She bows. 'Nice to meet you to. You can call me Die.' He bows too. 'Shinya, why don't you show him your room? It's late, I already layed an extra matrass in your room. You guys must be tired.' I nod. 'We'll go to sleep soon.' Then I start walking upstairs. Die follows me. I open the door to my room. I sigh. I've never felt so awkward in my life before. I wonder if it'll be like this the whole week. I walk in and put my suitcase down. I step over the matrass and sit on my bed. Die looks surprised at the drums. 'They're so big.' A smile is forming on his face. I glare at him. 'Don't even think about teasing me now! I'm going to sleep.' I lie down with my back to him. 'But I wasn't going to...' Even though I haven't slept the previous night, I still can't sleep. Maybe it's because the thought of hurting me is crossing through my head the whole time. But I don't want to, I really don't.
I think Die is asleep. I need to do something. I get up and put my shoes, pants, a sweater and a jacket on and go outside. I need a walk. I need to get my thoughts sorted out. I need to stop thinking. Yeah, that would be great. I'm walking for a while when I feel a hand around my arm and when I want to scream a hand covers my mouth. I am pulled in a dark ally. 3 people push me down. I'm struggling, but they're too strong. Then I feel something sharp being pressed against my throat. What can only be a knife. I freeze. 'Yeah, that's right, don't move. Now, where is your money?' 'I don't have money.' I whisper. 'That's a pity. Maybe you have some when we beat the life out of you.' My eyes grow wide and someone kicks me in my stomach. I gasp for air. Tears stream down my face. It hurts so much! More punches follow and I just try to cover my face.
'STOP IT!!' I hear a very familiar voice. Die. They let go. Thank god. I lie on the ground curled into a tight ball. I close my eyes and hear fighting sounds and screams. 'Leave!' Then someone kneels by me. 'Shinya, are you okay? 'You are... If you hadn't... Thank you!' I throw my arms around him and am sobbing. His hand rubs my back. 'Shhh... It will be okay. Can you walk? We need to get back to your home.' I nod and try to stand, but when I want to take a step I fall forward. I expect to feel the cold stones, but instead I feel strong arms and a warm chest. 'Okay, maybe not...' He says. Then he picks me up in bridal style. Awkward, but right now, I don't care. We, or Die, walks back home. 'Die? What were you doing out there?' I ask. 'I can ask you the same... But you left and there always happen bad things when you walk around at this time.' 'Thank you. I..I just needed to get away from everything for a moment. I couldn't take it anymore...' I say. We are back home. My mum is sleeping. We walk to my room and lie down to go to sleep. 'I think we need to talk... But first we're going to sleep. Good night.' He says. 'Good night.'
