Hey, so my squish.....
He knows.
He'd been asking me for a while, and finally guessed. I only told him I like him though, I didn't explain the whole squish thing yet. However, he knows I'm aromantic, so I don't think he thinks anything of it anyways.
I still hate it though.
I hate the feeling I get when I'm around him/think of him
I hate the wanting to be closer to him
I hate the whole thing.
I love that I [platonically] love him, but I hate it at the same time.
I couldn't have asked for a better squish however. He's nice, and understanding. And also I hope does not read this, even if he does know now, I'd be embarrassed. However if he was reading it, I wouldn't make him stop.
I don't even know what to feel, because I really like him, and I don't know why exactly.
Like is there a reason I'm suppose to like him?
I just hate that feeling I get when I see/think about him.
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I always feel like I bother him though. Like I talk to him too much. I feel like he's just being nice to me.
I want him to know that he doesn't have to talk to me, if he doesn't want to. I don't know, that's about all for this I guess, for now.
Questions, comments????
~Hallie
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LGBT and me
Short StoryMe, and my story about being part of the LGBT community. My sexuality/romantic orientation, and also my....gender identity. Some struggles I have, and some positives too. That's pretty much what this is about, hope you like.
