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malia

I got up sitting in the middle of the road. My arms and legs full of dried blood and my head pounding. I tucked my head between my knees. I don't remember a fucking thing from last night, all I remember is going to an alcohol store.

Tears started streaming down my eyes as I remembered Shawn. He's not worth it, he's not worth my tears. My birthday is in literally a week and I've already got drunk, my 18th birthday.

My phone started vibrating as I got an incoming call from Shawn. I declined it sighing. He rang again which I also declined. I laid on the road waiting for any car to pass and run over to me. Go ahead, don't feel afraid to run over some already crushed girl covered in dry blood.

My phone kept on vibrating until I finally decided to answer it. "What?!" I spat.

"Where are you?" Shawn asked. "Like you fucking care" I spat again. "Malia seriously" He said.

"I don't fucking know" I said groaning as my headache came back. "Tell me what you see" He said. "Nothing" I said blankly.

"Malia stop being so complicated!" Shawn yelled. "Why don't you!" I asked crying. I ended the call I laid back on the floor.

My phone vibrated again which made me bubble in anger. "What the fuck do you want?!" I spat answering the call without checking who it was.

"Oh um sorry" I heard Ethan. I sighed. "Fuck sorry, hi" I said. "What's wrong now?" He asked.

"I don't fucking know, lying in the middle of a road waiting for a car to run over me" I sighed. "Are you fucking crazy? Yes, yes you are. Get the fuck up now and go back to Shawn. This is exactly like the balcony." Ethan said.

"Since when did you care? I asked. "Forget it, go die then" Ethan said ending the call. I groaned feeling tears roll down. I got up listening to Ethan and walked back to Shawn's home. It was 3:00 and my flight leaves at 7:00 so I have to get there around 6:30.

So 3 and a half hours of nothing. I entered the house without any greetings from anyone, only the sight of Shawn and Alyssa on top of him. "Malia, are you okay?" Shawn asked. I nodded my head.

"You're covered in blood" He said. "Yeah I didn't know that" I rolled my eyes.

I walked up the stairs only to be dragged back down by Shawn grabbing my wrists. "Stop, Malia. You're being so complicated, you're rude and stubborn. You've changed." He said. "You too" I said back.

Alyssa stood next to me. "What?" I looked at her. She swung her arm and slapped my cheek. I winced in pain. "Alyssa you didn't have to do that" Shawn said. "She punched you" Alyssa says, "But you really didn't have to" Shawn said placing a kiss on her lips in front of me.

"Shawn, you're disgusting. We're done, I guess we weren't meant to be" I said sighing.

"You should have known we were over ever since I told you that you were nothing to me last night" He said. Ouch.

I walked back upstairs and grab my luggage, taking it outside. I walk back into the house with a new pair of sweats and a plain hoodie.

I quickly showered and brought all of my things out into my luggage. "Why are you packing?" Shawn asked. "Cause I'm leaving" I say in an obvious tone.

"Since when did you tell me?" He asked shocked. "Well my flight got shortened, plus I wouldn't think you would care if I left" I said. "At least tell me!" Shawn says.

"Well I'm sorry, you gave me no time to talk to you" I said. "What are we doing now then?" He asked. "We're arguing" I said crossing my arms.

"You're not the same Malia I met" He shook his head. "Listen to yourself please" I begged with tears in my eyes. "Yes of course I'm not the same after losing someone special to me. Shawn what would you do if you were in my position? Actually for once there was someone in the world that could make me feel important and guess what, that was you. Shawn you gave me the best week of my life, but I guess good things don't last do they?" I sighed wiping my tears.

"I'm sorry" He said. "That's not good enough" I said mocking him. He looked at me shocked. "Why can't you just accept my apology, I really mean it" Shawn said.

"Exactly how I felt" I said. He looked at me confused, his face changed when he finally realised that's what he did to me. "Now I'm sorry for wasting your time trying to make me happy." I said walking out.

author's note:

school started and my updating is going to be slow :(

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