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malia

I waited in the airport for my flight to be called, I took a taxi here somehow. I was too stressed to think about my future now, I have Shawn in my hands.

He doesn't even care that I'm here leaving and going back to North Carolina. I thought he loved me? He's reactions when I told him I didn't love him, which was only a joke he took seriously. Maybe it was fake?

Why am I questioning it, his love for me was fake, he lead me on. Only to be end up shattered. I feel like I'll end up going into my bad habits.

A tear slipped down my cheek as I thought about Shawn and the affect he had on me. How could he lead me on, tell me he loved me, look after me and treated me like everyone he loved.

To me that's fucking insane, to be treated like you're loved makes me feel special, after losing Nash, definitely. I feel like rubbish, how would it feel to have your first boyfriend or even the first person who cares about you apart from Hayes and my Mum to love you and to care for you?

I admitted I loved him for no reason.

I pulled my hoodie over my face trying to avoid people's stare. I walked through the crowds and into the plane, I looked around to find my seat which was next to... Aaron?! I awkwardly sat beside him, by the way, he took the seat by the window.

I tried to avoid him seeing my face since he could identify me. Around a 3 hour flight, great... I sighed resting my head on the seat as I put on my beats. I left my seatbelt off because why the fuck not. The people who walked pass to check the seatbelts are horrible at their jobs. 

After all the shit the plane started moving. "Umm excuse me, your belt isn't on. You could be injured if something happens" I heard Aaron say tapping on my shoulder lightly.

I coughed before replying. "Uhh yeah, sorry I don't like belts" I said in a weird voice. "But I honestly think you should put the belt on, it would help your safety." He said kindly.

"Well safety isn't my top priority." I said trying to make him stop talking to me.

"But I-" He said getting cut off by me. "I don't care, I'll end up dead anyways if this plane doesn't crash!" I said getting irritated.

"W-why are you thinking like that?" He asked. "Aaron, please just leave me alone" I said wiping my tears still having my hoodie hiding my face. "How di-did you know I'm Aaron?" He asked shocked. Oh shit...

"Malia?..." I heard him ask slowly peeling my hoodie off. "Oh my god, why are you crying?" He  asked straight away pulling me in a hug. He rubbed my back which made me cry more, it reminded me of Shawn.

Exactly what he'd do if I was crying. Aaron hushed me soothingly. I felt his hands trail to my belt, I felt him buckle them together still having me snuggled up against his chest. "Thanks" I whispered climbing off of him and sitting back onto my seat. Pull yourself together Malia.

"Tell me what's wrong" His thumb softly rubbed over my thumb making me calm down.

"It's nothing to worry about, I'll get over it eventually" I smiled at him. He gave me an unsure look. "I'm guessing Shawn right?" He asked. My eyes widen, it's crazy that people can easily guess it's Shawn.

"I'm sure he didn't mean anything he did. He's a nice kid, he usually never means to make anyone feel bad. He could be ticked off," Aaron said. "Alyssa was there" I said hoping he didn't know who she was.

"Oh Alyssa, she's a great person" Aaron smiled at me. I gagged. "Great?" I repeated in disgust. "Malia, seriously? She's literally the bomb. If you don't think that, then dang who are you?" Aaron said. I rolled my eyes.

"Look Malia, she's very kind. You probably haven't met her, she's the sweetest person ever! Literally you'll love her" Aaron said smiling at me. Doubt that shit.

"How do you know so much about her?" I asked. "Shawn's ex, he brought her on tour once and they were like the cutest! But this time they took a break I assumed and now they're together" He smiled. Yeah, they are together, Shawn fucking played me.

"I don't care, anyways.. so why are you on this plane?" I asked. "Okay.." He said trailing off, probably at my rudeness when I said 'I don't care'.

"I'm going to Hayes' house to surprise him. It's his birthday, the other boys are coming down as well soonly." Aaron smiled. Oh yeah, it's Hayes birthday which also means it's mine...

I loved birthdays, Hayes and I would always go out on adventures literally to anywhere. Even in the middle of nowhere for a few days and it's been like that ever since we were young. Usually our parents would take us, since we're old enough we started going on our own. I have a feeling this birthday isn't going to be the best...