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malia

I didn't really do anything that night, I just sat there. It was my birthday in 3 days, looks like nothing fun is going to happen when I turn 18.

My phone started ringing, I checked who was calling and it was Ethan. "Hi" I said answering the call.

"Hi, umm I'm flying down really soonly for Hayes' surprise party" He said. "Oh when?" I asked. "Umm like in an hour Gray and I are boarding" He said. "Can you pick us up?" He asked.

"Yeah sure, call me when you arrive" I said. "Where are you now?" He asked. "At home" I lied. "Oh okay, umm soon all the other boys are coming down as well" He said. "Oh cool" I said. "18 birthdays are very important, this is the biggest family party yet" Grayson yelled through the phone. "Cool" I faked laugh. "Okay bye" Ethan quickly said before ending the call. I sighed slipping my phone in my pocket before walking back home to get my car to pick the boys up.

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I waited in my car and took my phone out. I dialled Ethan's number. "Hey!" Ethan laughed as he picked up the phone. "Hi, umm where are you?" I asked tapping my fingers on the steering wheel. "We're out at the carpark, which level are you on?" He asked. "Uhh" I said looking outside my window. "3" I said as I saw the number painted on the walls. "Okay we'll be there" He said ending the call.

I impatiently waited for them continuously tapping here and there, fiddling around. My leg started shaking then my eyes started scanning around frantically, I felt my fingers just starting to increase the tapping speed against the steering wheel. My breathing went uneven. "Malia" I heard Ethan. I snapped my head towards him. "Breathe" He said calmly holding my hand.

I nodded and took a sip of water. He smiled  "Can you open the boot?" Ethan asked. I nodded and opened the boot. They both piled their things inside and jumped in the car with Ethan in the front and Grayson in the back.

"You okay?" Ethan asked. I nodded. "You look stressed" Ethan said. "Just relax" Grayson said. "I stuffed up Ethan" I said sighing. I banged my head on the steering wheel. "Alyssa" I said. Ethan and Grayson stared at each other.

"Told you, should have fucking listened to me" Ethan said to Grayson. I raised my eyebrow at them. "I knew something would happen because of her" Ethan said. "Someone could of told me, literally anyone." I said.

"I'm sorry" Grayson said. "It's fine" I sighed. "So what did Shawn do?" Ethan asked. "Nothing" I huffed, "It was me" I said starting to drive. "Want me to drive?" Ethan asked. "Can you drive manual?" I asked pointing to the gears. "Oh I didn't realise" He laughed making me smile.

"I'm just on bad terms with Hayes" I said driving. "What did you do?" He asked. "I snapped at him, he took it the wrong way but I don't blame him" I said. "Just relax Malia" Grayson said rubbing my shoulders from behind. "Haha thanks" I squealed since it tickled.

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I checked the time, 1pm. I sighed entering my room. The twins apparently were staying here for a while and also staying at this house. I walked downstairs seeing everyone piled on the couch watching the tv. I was going out to Jamie's or Everest house. I stopped at my tracks and realised they're not my friends anymore. I sighed and walked back.

I grabbed a banana and just sat watching with them. Aaron, Nash, Hayes and the twins were the only ones in the house and obviously me. "Let's go to the beach" Nash said. Everyone agreed and got up. I still sat, I wasn't in the mood.

"You coming Malia?" Aaron asked. "Umm I'm good" I said. "Come please" Grayson begged. "Only for you" I said scrunching up my face and walked into my room.

I really wasn't in the mood so I didn't bring my swimmers. I changed into a cute white playsuit which was half lace. I left my hair tied up in a ponytail. I wore my sandals and grabbed my denim jacket before walking out.

Everyone was already ready, not surprising. "Take two cars, Malia you go drive" Aaron said. I nodded and walked out. Ethan came but Grayson decided to go with the others. I hopped in the car with Ethan and started to drive. I realised he was looking out the window the whole time.

"What's got into your pants?" I asked him. "Nothing" He said through gritted teeth. He took a breath. "sorry," he sighed. "It's fine" I said, it really was. I don't even know why he was saying sorry. "I would really hold you hand right now, but it's occupied" he said softly and frowned. I laughed. "Sorry Eth" I laughed.

We arrived at the beach but I stayed in the shade the whole time. I wasn't in the mood for anything. Ethan came back from the waves and sat beside me. "Sure you don't want to go in?" He asked. "Affirmative" I laughed. He nodded and sat beside me. I curled my toes in the sand, I felt Ethan's arms around my shoulders as he rubbed my arms. I sighed and rested my head on his bare chest.

I felt Ethan's arm tense up, he stopped rubbing my arm and his muscles freezes. I sat up from his chest and stared at him in confusion. "Are you okay?" I asked. He looked at me, his eyes soft and gentle.

His eyes then turned a deeper shade and he roughly pushed me off of him.

Bipolar...

I went colliding to the sand, embarrassing...? I sighed and dusted myself off before looking at him. His jaw clenched, fist tightened and his eyes just full of fury.

"Pull yourself together for fuck sakes" I hissed. He just stared at me angrily.

"Ethan, leave her alone man what's your problem?" Grayson said walking up behind me. Grayson carefully draped his arm around my shoulder. "Are you okay?" Grayson asked rubbing my arms. I nodded.

Ethan rolled his eyes, he's such a fucking child. I sighed shook off Grayson's arm. I walked over to my car. There's 5 people, that's enough for one car. I'm fed up with Ethan being so bipolar. First he's smiling, he's happy and he's showing he cares. Next minute, his eyes grow darker and he gets all ticked up. I don't know what his problem is, but whatever it is.

He needs help.