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malia

I jolted awake in the middle of the night. Something doesn't feel right...

I looked around the room, Ethan lying asleep beside me nothing else. I carefully slipped out of the bed and crawled to the cabinets to grab a spare blanket. I grabbed my phone and beats and dragged it all to the balcony.

I sat on the floor and buried myself comfortably in the sheets as I listened to music. Have I told you music is my escape? It's always there for me, to help me calm down when I'm stressed or when I'm crying. It's there when I'm bored or can't sleep, it's my best friend.

I looked out at the scenery. San Francisco is pretty. It's gorgeous, I love this place. The city like vibe and how the city lights shine, it's relaxing.

I saw the sun already rising. Is it that early? I leaned my head against the wall and let my thoughts drift away.

Everything Ethan said to me was shocking. For a guy who has ignored me for over a year and has treated me like shit just confessed that he likes me, scratch that, loved me since he saw me. It's crazy, it can't be true.

I'll always be here for him no matter what, his goofy smile can make my day. His words can turn me into a giddy person for over days. He's just legendary. I'm now dating him. Shocking right?

I mean I never lost faith in trying to get close to him. I've always tried and tried, now look where I am. He makes my thoughts disappear. Being with him, I have no thoughts of Shawn. It's just him, I'm in a world where it's just Ethan and I and honestly, I don't ever want to leave.

"Hey," I heard a deep raspy voice. I snapped my head to his direction and pulled my headphones down so it wrapped around my neck. "What are you doing up so early?" He asked taking a seat beside me.

I gave him space in my blanket as he made himself comfortable. I yawned and laid my body, letting my head rest on his lap. He smiled down at me and played with my hair.

"How are you feeling?" He asked looping my hair in his fingers. "Not bad, just wanted to relax," I replied. He nodded. "So what are we doing today?"

"We should just chill here, maybe in the evening we can go to the beach or something," I suggested. He nodded. "Sounds good to me." He smiled pressing his lips softly on my temple.

"Let's go back inside so we can go get food." He smiled helping me up. He carried the blankets in as I took a shower changing into light washing skinny jeans and a random oversized jumper.

I walked out and slipped on my converse. I left my hair out since I was lazy to tie it. Ethan smiled at me before entering the bathroom. He's so cute, honestly.

I made the bed since I know Ethan doesn't do such a great job. My phone vibrated, I groaned and answered it. "Heyo." It was Grayson, oops.

"Oh hey." I replied. "How's the trip?" he asked. "Good," I said. "Any news?" he asked. "Well, we're dating." I said buzzing in happiness. "Haha otp!" He laughed. "I knew you guys would get together." He said.

"Well what are you doing now?" I asked. "Reading through comments, I feel so bad for the fans." Grayson said. I could tell he was frowning.

"Don't worry, they understand. It's better for Ethan anyways." I said softly and he sighed. "Well I got to go." He said. "Awh, bye." I pouted. "Cya." He ended the call as I slipped my phone back into my pocket.

The bathroom door opened and Ethan trotted in with his hair all soaked. I chuckled at him lightly.

"Let's go." He said grabbing his phone. We walked out and down the streets trying to find places to eat.

"What do you think our future would be like?" He asked me. "It would be full of happiness," I said honestly.

"You've been brought down and now I haven't seen you this happy and if we continue to be together, it just gets better."

"I see us with a family of our own." Ethan smiles at me. "Our daughter would have that cute little button nose of yours and your eyelashes. She'll have the darkest eyes but when you look inside, it's a completely new universe. I'll teach her how to surf and how to climb trees. She'll be mine."

"Wow." I breathed out. "Deep." I chuckled nodding.

"Wait, want to go in there?" I asked stopping in my tracks. "Sure." He smiled as we entered.

We took our seats and looked through the menu. "Wait till I tell you about our son." He smirked. "Oh so now we're getting two children?" I chuckled.

"He'll be a mama's boy. I can imagine him as an... Ethan Junior. He's a mini-me, he's going to have that perfect jawline that made you go crazy about me and he'll be a sporty dude. I'll teach him soccer and I'll make him learn to be responsible and mature at a young age. I'll make him read books and be into art." Ethan just rambles on about our future children.

It's cute, he's thinking so much ahead of him. He just makes me smile, he's so descriptive when he's explaining.

"You're making our children boring!" I whined at him. "I am not!" He retorted making me laugh.

"I'm making my children smart." He said as I laughed. We took our orders.

"What if like... I start dating Gray?" I teased. "Sorry baby but you're all mine. Gray can't have you."

I chuckled. "You're mine and only mine."

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"We're not going to the beach, sorry." I said walking out of the bathroom. "We're going somewhere else."

"Where's that somewhere else?" Ethan asked. "I don't know, that's the point." I smiled.

"So we're just going to roam around like stupid dogs. This is our first time here and we're going to go around without a map or any sort of way to know where to get back home?" He asked shocked.

"Exactly."

"Then let's go." He smiled. "Always into the stupid stuff aren't you?" I asked slipping on sweats and a random jumper.

Ethan changed into sweats and a random shirt as we grabbed our phones and walked out.

It was already pitch black. The night moon gleaming over the buildings underneath us. He intertwined his hands with mine as we walked to nowhere.

"Why have you been stressed?" I asked swinging our hands. "You can't just ask me that Malia." He sighed looking down. I furrowed my eyebrow.

"I just couldn't function properly without having you around. There's no one there to make me smile. I couldn't just sit there and stare at you, I had no one to just glance and admire. I had no one to imagine things with, without you is a whole new world. A world I hate and it's been eating me because I couldn't see you."

"But you've always hated me E." I said. "I never hated you, I never will hate you. All the times I've been acting like a dick around you was only because I was scared."

He shook his head. "I just want to stay around you."

"I'll always be here. Always and forever."