Blaise, The Bad Boy, and The Beast [SLOW UPDATES]

Needing Eli

I don't know how long I laid there crying until I fell asleep, but I finally did. I woke up alone and the sun was shining through the windows. I sat up and lit a cigarette and grabbed my phone to check the time. Good grief, it's two in the afternoon. I guess I finally got some good sleep. I rubbed my eyes out and climbed out of bed. I opened my door and walked downstairs. Eli was in the kitchen cooking something. I padded into the kitchen and opened the fridge to get a bottle of water. When I came back up and shut the door Eli was frozen staring at me.

"What?" I said raising an eyebrow.

And then it hit me, I forgot to put clothes on. I'm still in Lincoln's shirt which was smaller than his average shirt and my lace underwear from homecoming. Honestly, I could care less right now. I just looked down at myself and shrugged before taking a seat at the bar.

"Sorry." I muttered taking a drink of my water.

Eli just shook his head and smiled before passing me an apple. He doesn't bother trying to fight me to eat anymore, it's no use and he knows it only upsets me. I appreciate that, I don't want to be pushed to do anything.

"Jake's parents are out of town and he's throwing a party at his house. Cassie wanted me to tell you. I didn't think you'd want to go, but I thought I'd offer. I'll take you if you want to go." Eli said taking the seat next to me.

Normally, I wouldn't want to go. But after last night I don't think getting drunk can hurt. In fact I could really use it. If not I'll probably just sit here all weekend and throw myself into a mental breakdown. I would much rather be out looking for Lincoln but I know no one is going to let me. They have all the boys doing double time looking for him on the weekends and I'll only get in the way. I looked up at Eli and nodded.

"I'll go." I said before taking a bite of my apple.

"Really? Wow, that's not what I expected." Eli looked surprised.

A few hours later Cassie showed up with a determined look on her face. She dragged me up to my bedroom and sat me down at my vanity. She worked her magic on my hair and face and then started digging through my closet. She pulled out my black pleather pants, a white crop top and my black ankle boots with the high heel. I took them and slipped them on and turned to look at myself in the mirror. I reached up and traced the scar across my stomach.

"Let's go, B." Cassie said smiling softly.

I snapped out of it and gave her a small smile and a nod. We walked downstairs and Eli was dressed and sitting at the bar talking to Lucas. Eli was wearing a black v neck and dark jeans. I walked over to them and looked at Lucas and before I knew it he had me swooped up in a giant hug. I hugged him back before he set me back down on my feet. I looked up and gave him a small smile.

"I'm here to watch over Toby, he decided to stay home tonight." Lucas said taking a seat.

"Thank you for that." I said softly.

"Ready?" I looked to Eli who nodded in response.

"We're going to ride with Cassie and Lucas is going to pick us up." He said handing me my jacket.

We all walked out the door and climbed in Cassie's car. We pulled up outside of Jake's house which was live with music and drunk teenagers. Walking up to the door I could smell the alcohol and weed. We headed straight to the kitchen where Jake was talking to some girl. He saw me and immediately blew her off and swooped me up in a hug. He put me down with a huge grin on his face. I looked up at him with a small smile.

"Where's the alcohol?" I said making everyone laugh.

Twenty minutes later I was six shots and three beers down. Due to my lack of eating I was already drunk. I rolled a blunt and lit it up. We passed it around until it was gone. I was drowning my emotions in weed and alcohol but it felt like a small relief because my mind was racing full of terrible thoughts. I took a few more shots and then pulled Eli who was also drunk onto the dance floor. Everyone followed and started dancing around us.

Everything was blurry and my mind was fuzzy. I couldn't think straight and that was okay with me. I turned around and pulled Eli up behind me. I grabbed his hands and put them on my waist and started moving to the music. He was hesitant at first but eventually he gave in, he was pretty wasted himself. I was leaning and almost tripping but was still managing to dance.

An hour later we were still drinking and dancing. Eli and I somehow managed to get drunker then we already were. My friends were drunk and dancing all around me. I was sweaty and could barely function. I laid my head back on Eli's chest and kept moving. I looked up at him and could see the pain in his eyes. He was hurting too, he just kept it to himself so he could be strong for me. He tightened his grip on my waist and pulled me closer. I lifted my head back up and put my hands behind wrapping them around his neck.

He leaned down and ran his lips across my shoulder and up my neck. I leaned my head back and ran my fingers down his face. He looked up at me with his eyes full of emotion and next thing I knew our lips were pressed against each other. Our kiss was full emotions. Hurt, anger, sadness, need. I yearned for Lincoln's lips to be on mine and his arms to be around me. I was too drunk to reason with myself that this was Eli, but I think Eli knows what I need and he's giving it to me whether it hurts him or not.

After a few minutes we broke apart, we didn't say anything we just kept dancing. After another two hours we finally decided we needed to go home. Lucas picked us up and drove us home. Eli helped me upstairs even though he was stumbling a bit himself. Eli excused himself to go get dressed in something he could sleep in and I took that time start undressing myself. I slipped my pants off along with my tank top and threw them across the window. I heard the door shut behind me but I didn't move. I only let a few tears fall down my face. I think the alcohol only increased my pain along with the need for Lincoln's touch.

I'm drunk and high out of my mind and that's all I wanted and I think Eli knew that. He's good at reading me. I felt his body heat behind me and then his fingers ran up my spine. He turned me around and looked me in the eyes, I tried to hide my shock when I saw that he had tears falling down his cheeks. He reached up and wiped my tears away with his thumb and kissed my forehead. In that moment I don't know what came over me but we were both hurting. I need him and he needs me. We may regret this and we may feel like shit about it but right now we're both overwhelmed with emotions about Lincoln and we both need each other.

As if he knew what I was thinking Eli pressed his lips down on mine and kissed him back, hard. I poured all of my emotions into this kiss and so did Eli. After a few minutes he picked me up and laid me on the bed gently and broke away. He pulled back the covers and I crawled under them. He followed me and wrapped his arm around me.

"Sleep." He whispered.

I nodded and closed my eyes.