Blaise, The Bad Boy, and The Beast [SLOW UPDATES]

Jared Pt. 2

My palms were sweating and my hands were shaking as the doctor made his way over to us. The look on his face said bad news. My breathing was rapid and my mind was spinning. I shakily stood up to greet the doctor. I'm so scared, please let Jared be okay. The doctor stood in front of me and reached his hand out to shake mine. I reached out and took it, I attempted to manage a smile but I couldn't. I just stood there wide eyed, shaking.

"Blaise, I assume?" he said.

"Yes." I said barely a whisper.

"I'm Dr. Adams. We've just gotten out of surgery with Jared." He said slowly.

He slightly looked away. My heart rate picked up and my brothers stood up quickly behind me.

"Please, Dr. Adams, is he okay?" I said choking back a tear.

"Blaise, I'm sorry.." he started and my world started to spin.

"We tried everything that we could. Jared didn't make it. I'm so sorry for your loss. Take some time with your brothers and then you can come say goodbye, if you'd like." He said putting his hand on my shoulder.

I think I stopped breathing, I don't know. I couldn't think, I couldn't speak, I could only scream. Inside and out. My Jared. My brother. He's gone. My knees went weak and I dropped to the floor with a loud scream making everyone look at me. Someone's arms wrapped around me. I'm not sure who, everything is a blur. I sobbed and sobbed.

"Please bring my brother back!" I screamed and sobbed towards the doctor. He wasn't even there anymore.

I gripped the arms that were around me and just folded forward sobbing and begging for my brother. How could this happen? Why him? Why Jared? He was so pure, so innocent. I need to see him. I shakily stood up and walked over to the reception. She looked up at with me sad eyes looking as if she wished she could do something to help.

"I want to see my brother...please." I choked out.

She nodded and motioned me through the double doors and told me a room number. I walked through the doors and down the hall with my brothers and Lincoln behind me. I felt as if everything around me was moving in slow motion. My brother has been ripped away from in a terrible way. Jared was never supposed to leave me. I finally got to the room Jared's body was in and took a deep breath before I walked in. As soon as I walked in I began to cry.

There was my brother. Lifeless, pale, still. Everything that Jared wasn't. I slowly walked over to him and put my hand on his head. No movement, no flinching, no life. Nothing. How could this be my brother? I rubbed my thumb across his forehead and shook my head.

"Jared.." I whispered.

"It's Blaise. Please come back to me. Please don't leave me. I can't do this without you. How am I supposed to do this without you, Jared? Please!" I sobbed out dropping to my knees.

I gripped Jared's hand. This can't be goodbye, it's not possible. I want my brother back. I just sat there on the floor sobbing until Lincoln picked me up and headed out the doors. I didn't fight, I didn't speak. I just laid in his arms staring at nothing. Blank. Hurt. Lincoln placed me on the back of his bike and kissed me on the forehead before he put my helmet on me. He climbed on in front of me and I wrapped my arms around him instinctively.

The ride home was a blur. I just laid my head on Lincoln's back and stared into nothing as he drove home. A part of me just wanted to let go. Let go of Lincoln and fall off. Then I'd be with Jared. I should've been the one to go, not him. We pulled into the driveway of the house and before I knew it I was in Lincoln's arms and he was carrying me into the house. He carried me into the bedroom and set me down to let me stand. I just stared at him. He looked at me with sad eyes and stroked my cheek. Not knowing what to say. I just fell to the ground and Lincoln came with me.