Fix My Heart ( A Robert Downey Jr. Fanfic )

Chapter Twenty Five - Breaking The Word

- you have no idea how
hard I'm smiling right now

- I miss you

The smile turned into a dull gaze that bounced between the phone screen and Robert's face. A feeling so strange, I shouldn't feel it, not with Robert around. He had the courage to say such words. He dared with boldness, saying it with complete plainness like everything was totally fine. I no longer hold feeling for him and I didn't have such hatred anymore but regardless of that, I felt like asking for a confirmation that he miss me indeed, just to know if he went through the pain I lived.
Why? I had no idea, but I guess it was just to prove something for the the old me, the foolish girl who believed she can't function without "Acy".

The strange feels however didn't come from Ace's words, I was feeling bad for breaking my promise, continuing the conversation with Ace was against Robert wishes and the word I gave to him but I did it anyways and that dragged me to the lying option. Anyone, in their right mind would avoid having this risky conversation and end it right away but I'm not known for being the one with the greatest decisions apparently.

Robert analyzed the look on my face, his brows knitted but softened almost immediately, "Everything's alright?" He switched off his phone and looked at me, adding a bit of questioning to his tone. I nodded, attention still on the bright screen.

‎‏Do you really?

"Mella?" Robert raised his voice a bit, snapping me out of the blurry memories of the pain I went through. I jumped a little, "Hmm?" It came out quite loud. My hand automatically turned my phone off and put it on mute. My eyes locked with his. My weakness. "What's the matter? You seem frightened." He chuckled, surprised from my reaction. "Nothing, I-I kinda zoned out I guess." A shaky sigh that sounded like a laugh came out. He nodded, still smiling. The warmth of it brought me back to reality, snapped me out off the weird whirlpool I fell into.

"Okay will you please get your head back in here?" He patted his lap. It took me few good moments to actually move and lay my head on his lap. His hand started to run throw my hair once again, running streaks of gladness from being close to him mixed with horrible remorse. "I won't talk to Ace again, this is just so wrong."  I thought.

"What are you thinking of?" He asked after a little pause. "Take a guess." obviously, I couldn't tell the truth, so I just took another turn.
"Me? It has to be me." He confidently replied. I smiled, "close enough, I was thinking of what are we going to do tonight." Well, clearly that wasn't what I thought of  but I guess my demons considered it as a white lie that won't cause harm ... but it will, maybe a little in the future ... if I choose to tell.

Robert looked down at me with mischief underneath his grin, he raised an eyebrow, "If that's what you want I'm gladly up for it." He winked. "What? ... Oh!" It took me a second to understand what he said. I lifted my head off his lap and sat up, still facing him. A flush crept up my cheeks, "I didn't mean it that way." I shyly explained, touching the back of my neck. Although what he was trying to propose is a great idea, I didn't want him to think I'm all about getting my "needs" filled. He gave a mirthful laugh and then moved fast towards me, driving me backwards and pinning me under his weight, "I know what you meant, I just wanted to see you blush." He softly kissed my cheeks, still bubbling with amusement. I couldn't help but giggle too, "You are unbelievable."

"I know." He drew his bottom lip between his pearly whites, smiling happily not taking his gaze off my eyes. I drowned in them again, that magical thing about him that would make me forget the world, stop the time, spread comfort throughout my body. Only him can make me feel that way. He leaned closer and locked our lips for a long lavish single kiss, smoothly and softly. "How about me cooking dinner for you? With a movie after? Typical day." He suggested once we broke apart for air. "I love you from the bottom of my heart but baby, I don't think you're hmm what's the word?" I pretended to think, "Qualified to feed us." I said casually, adding a bit of playfulness to my tone. I knew for a fact that he can't cook, he can barley make coffee, he was trying though my dear. Robert groaned and lifted himself up, back to the siting position, "That's cruel, I was trying to be romantic." He faked a pout, it was super adorable that it made me feel bad for turning him down for real. "Ugh fine then but I'll help and supervise, you know .. just incase." I shrugged and he let out an exaggerated Haha pressing a quick kiss on my cheek, "Ahh I knew you can't say no to the pout." He then stood up, clenching his hands in the air in victory. I shook my head snickering, "I will never fall for that again." I called behind him, remaining seated in the living room as he walked off to the stairs, "Oh yeah? We'll see about that." He called back. "This guy is gonna drive me nuts one day, he already is." I said, smiling to myself.