It was dark and sad and cold, the exact opposite of what we were yesterday. I stood up slowly, locking my eyes with his kind ones. Although his features were softer than earlier, he was still pulling off a slightly upset expression. I didn't say anything for a moment. We were staring silently at each other, knowing exactly how the other's feeling. "How can I leave? I can't be without you." I meekly replied, getting this strong urge to wrap my arms tightly around him and spill my apologies. Robert exhaled and looked away, chewing on his bottom lip. "I -um- " he stuttered and started to come closer to me.
He put down the pizza on the coffee table, "I think we should talk." He sat on the couch leaving enough space for me. "Yes, we definitely should." I hastily said and sat down next to him. "Mella," he started, "I need you to be completely honest with me and please tell the truth, I don't want to live in a lie." Robert continued, his tone laced with seriousness and somehow, fear. I nodded my agreement. "Do you want this? Do you really love me? Am I just a distraction you kill your time with?" he asked, his need for the truth seeped into his voice. Up close, the circles around his eyes seemed to darken, showing off how both broken and tired he was.
At first, I couldn't believe what he said, "Please tell me you're joking because I'm about to hit you." I let out a nervous laugh but I knew instantly from the look on his face he wasn't joking. He was still questioning my love to him. "I wish I were." He said and I shook my head and held his hands in mine at once. The same softness that'd send warmth all through my body, "Robert, you fixed my heart. You literally made it beat with love again, of course, I love you and I will never stop loving you."
He lowered his head but I tighten my grip around his hands gently to draw his look back on me, "Don't say that I use you as a distraction, you know exactly how I feel for you and how I'm prepared to do anything just to stay with you and make you happy." Words flew from my mouth with complete honesty, letting him see the genuine feelings I have for him reflecting on my whole body.
"Then why we were running your fingers through his hair? Where did I go wrong? You're making me question every little thing I feel like I'm starting to lose my sanity." His hands linked with mine, directing ease and relieve to my fired up mind. However, my heart didn't calm down, it clenched painfully inside my chest. He sounded like he was choking with tears. Words barley making their way out of his throat. "I was using my hands to push his head away, trying to protect myself when you weren't there to protect me," I replied, hopeful that It was an answer that'd put down his fire. "And the texting, ... yeah it was my mistake I should've stopped him the moment he started but my curiosity kept me going. I wanted to know how his life is going after me." I shrugged, "I'm so sorry." I moved a hand out and stroked his hair and cheek lightly, "Honey you mean the world to mean, I'd be better off dead than to be with someone who's not you."
Robert stayed silent for a second, focusing his look on the table. I wanted to go on, to tell him what the word Robert means in my head but I remained silent too, giving him an opportunity to listen to his own heart. His eyes started to shine but he shut them tightly and licked his lips. And in a swift move, he buried his head on the side of my neck, clasping his hands behind my back, literally bringing back the life to my soul. "I thought I'd lost you I was so scared I'm sorry." He intoned brittlely. I could feel the wetness of his cheek along with the roughness of his stubble hair against my neck. I couldn't help it, tears started streaming slowly down my face. I couldn't talk, I hugged back, long and hard.
He let out a sigh, "I can't picture you with somebody else, I hate to even think of it. You have no idea how it felt seeing your in that position with him." His voice rumbled in an almost whisper next to my ear, waking up the comfort again. I smiled and pulled away to see his face. I grabbed his head with both of my hands and wiped away the already dried tears from his cheek with my thumbs, "There's no version of this where I'd be with someone other than you. You're the air that I breath, how can I survive without air?" I captured his lips into a kiss that melted the built up ice and ignited the torch of contentment again.
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Fix My Heart ( A Robert Downey Jr. Fanfic )
Fanfiction*Completed* - Do you do this? Do you kill yourself slowly by keeping gray clouds of thoughts and feelings live inside you? Do you torture yourself by falling for someone that has no desire to be yours but you keep on doing it anyways? Because I do...
