Fix My Heart ( A Robert Downey Jr. Fanfic )

Chapter Six - Me, Him and The Moon

          Robert took me outside to the backyard. The place was Beautiful, there was a swimming pool with long chairs by it's side, illuminated by the soft moonlight. 
I exhaled heavily and sank into  one of the many chairs. Robert kept standing, "You're okay?" He asked gently, stepping closer. I nodded yes lowering my head, glueing my eyes onto the ground.

         "Yeah you're not." He let out a sad sigh and sat down next to me, "See Mella, I know nothing about you so I thought that .... maybe I'd get to know you better if I invite you over for dinner, I'm sorry if I caused troubles." , "No you did nothing wrong. It's not your fault that my boyfriend is a douche. I'm so sorry about what he said, he has a problem." I said, still looking down.

         "No I'm the one who should be sorry, I'm the one who caused all of this, I shouldn't have asked that stupid question." He apologized again, "It's fine. Really, it happens all the time. He's always angry, It's annoying." I sighed.
"Then why you're still with him? Why you didn't break up with him?" I lifted my head up and looked at him immediately, with a confused look on my face. There was a small awkward silence before he spoke again, "I'm so sorry. Gosh I've done enough that was really inappropriate. It's non of my business" He said nervously.

"No No" I shook my head, "Please stop apologizing it's okay" I smiled trying to make him feel better, He didn't do anything wrong and yet, he kept apologizing.
"It's just that I hardly know you and I feel like I crossed the line." He pressed his lips together into a thin line.

             There was a strange feeling in my gut. His eyes were so warm and welcoming. I felt like I wanted to tell him everything about me, about my life, my past, my relationship, my friends and all of the things that were burning wild inside of me but I was scared. I wanted to open up to Him but I was afraid that I would tell him something he shouldn't know. I mean I barely know the man but why I was having this feeling?

        I didn't want to make him feel uncomfortable, so I tried to reply to his question casually but I amazingly failed, "How can I break up with him when he's the only reason I'm still alive? I love him so much. I can't give him up so easily although I'm aware of the fact that It's the best choice for the both of us."

Robert didn't reply to what I said, instead he nodded slightly giving me the sign to continue.

"He wasn't like that you know" I sighed heavily, "He was the definition of a knight in shining armor. He was gentle, kind, polite and humble. He loved me he uh .... he simply used to care and now.."
"He doesn't." He completed the sentence for me, "He doesn't ..... it's like he got what he needed and now he got bored and ..." I looked at the ground again almost crying but I fought the tears, "I don't know if i'm the reason."

         "Hey" He put his fingers under my chin and lifted up my head gently to look at him, "There is nothing wrong with you." He said in a deep voice.
"Thanks." I smirked slightly, trying not to make eye contact,
"It's true tho, you're amazing." He smiled, still looking directly at me. "Yeah...right" I chuckled a bit.

"This is life. Every couple go through hard stuff no matter how strong and pure their love is" He looked at the sky. Sighing heavily, "Me and Emma are going through horrible stuff right now."
"I'm sorry" I tried to comfort him, It was surprising that he opened up to me too.
"We argue all the time, over anything and everything. She....has been upset about my work, I'm not spending enough time with her. I'm not there for her she needs me. I'm always absent" He paused for a second, playing with his wedding ring on his left hand, "so umm we decided to take a break and now we're back, trying to restart building our relationship, but it's not working at all. We agreed that if this plan didn't work we're....getting divorce." He smiled weakly, holding back his pain, He looked really hurt, he couldn't hide it.