Just Okay

Now What.

18 in a few days and I finally have my shit together. I'm in love with my best friend and he's in love with me. I have friends now that I actually enjoy being around. I've actually gone where I never thought I would.

See, I never thought I would ever be a decent person but here I am actually helping in cheering people up and listening to what they have to say. People actually like me and for once I have my life handled pretty well.

I've forgotten those who hated on me and I've forgotten those who got in my way on purpose just to wind me up. I lost being with my parents and I sometimes still miss it but I'm glad I chose to be myself and change for the better. 

It was a Saturday morning, 10 a.m., and I was just getting dressed. I heard a familiar knock on the door. 

tap... tap tap tap.... tap. tap

"Come in sweetie the door isn't locked!" I shouted at the door.

"I know, I just thought it'd be fun to knock." He said as he came in the room with one of his hands behind his back. I pretended to not notice and continued putting on simple makeup, the usual mascara and chapstick. He came up behind me and kissed the top of my head.

"How's my favorite person doing today?" He looked at me in the mirror in admiration, his eyes glistened with a glow that just made want to..

"I'm doing great, love. And how are you, good sir?" I jokingly asked, knowing he was perfect. I bent backwards and smiled at his face that was looking down at mine.

"kiss me." And so I did. My lips against his, couldn't be any more perfect of a match. I stood up from the chair and barely leaving his gentle touch only to come back for more.

We were tied up in a perfect knot that never needed to be untied. I pulled away when I saw the bouquet of black roses he had laid out on the bed, I smiled.

"Something a little less main stream for my slightly less main stream love." He said and smiled softly, he lifted me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist getting drawn in by his heated passion. It was as if he was fire and I was fire and we were both sparked by everything around us and we were lost in our own little space where nothing else existed but the two of us.

We were madly in love and I could not believe that all it took to know that was to find myself and to understand the complicated mess I was and change into someone that was less of a mess.

We stopped after what seemed like forever.

"You wanna go somewhere and grab lunch?" he broke out, sounding excited and happier than I had ever seen him before. I stood up and changed what I was wearing into slightly nicer clothing, a red summer dress that reached down to just over my knees. 

"Would you like to go now or would you rather just lay around in bed all day?" I jokingly asked him as he stared at me, shocked and madly and completely in love.

"right... lets go" He finally made out, not moving his eyes from me "we're gonna be late." I didn't ask him what he meant by late but I kissed him once more before leaving the apartment and walking out.

"Are we taking the white beamer?" I asked excitedly. "No sweetheart, we're going to walk there." At first I thought he must be joking but we started to walk in the other direction, against the parking lot and I became a little less excited.

"Have I been there before or is it somewhere new?" I asked slightly nervously. He looked at me and kissed my forehead as we kept walking. He smiled the whole way.

We walked for about fifteen minutes before arriving at the town's road full of cafes.EUPHORIA it said right across the front window of the cafe. Bold font curved over a circle logo with a whale in it. It looked empty from the front through the window but I couldn't see much since it was tinted.

"This is the place?" I stared at him in confusion. "No one's here. It's like a ghost town, are you sure...?" He chuckled and kissed my cheek.

"Come on I'm sure it isn't that bad." He walked inside the cafe, leaving me outside, I slowly walked following him inside. I was so confused. The bell over the door rang as I walked inside, he stood there looking at me and smiling like an idiot.

"Let's sit out back." He took my hand and walked me to the back of the cafe. 

"He how come I've never seen this place before and I've walked these streets for years?" I held onto his arm and walked right beside him.

"I think it's new." He gave me quite short answers after what we did this morning. It raised my suspicions. We walked to the door for the outdoors part of the cafe, something about the music that was playing kind of calmed me a little and made me think maybe this isn't as bad as I think it is. 

As soon as we walked out to the back I realized what this was.

"SURPRISE!" There were a few people there, possibly around 8 with a big banner saying "Happy [almost] Birthday!" He hugged me from behind and kissed my cheek. "Surprise, love" he whispered into my ear and chuckled. This was amazing, people actually came to celebrate my birthday that wasn't for another two days. 

There was a table with a stack of gifts, I was never one to get many gifts for my birthday. I didn't really know what to do. I covered my face out of embarrassment and happiness and I started tearing up. This meant so much to me since the last few years I didn't celebrate my birthday more than a cupcake with a candle stuck in the middle of it. 

It was a great surprise and the cafe was perfect, there were sea shells around the sides, grass, sand, there was a tree that gave shade and grew apples that were hanging from each branch. 

"Do you like it?" a few girls asked me. I hugged them because I never knew that this is what it felt like to have friends to care about you and to dedicate their time into surprising you like this. "Oh jeez, I cannot explain how much I absolutely appreciate this." I wiped the tears off my cheeks and smiled.

"Thank you, really. Thank you, all of you. This is beyond great, this is.. this is fantastic and I'm so happy to have people like you in my life. Like, Jeez how long did it take to prepare for this?" They laughed and smiled and it was perfect.

"I have another surprise for you Summer." He said to me and handed me a big thick envelope. "This is now our cafe, I was going to call it Neptune's Garden but then thought that would be a little too-" I hugged him and I was just filled with the joy of having people that cared about me do something like this for me. And this man, I was grateful to have him in my life, he helped me become who I am now and I couldn't thank him enough.

"So now what?" He whispered and smiled at me, handing me a small sky blue box.