What You Wanted (A OneRepublic Fanfic)

Chapter 25- Wednesday's Incident

"This is all your fault Johana." I heard a voice say coldly.

"If you hadn't ran out in the middle of the street, than he wouldn't have pushed you out of the way." Another voice said.

"We will never forgive you for this!" A third voice said.

"I'm sorry." Was all I could manage to say.

The phrases kept repeating in my head and all I could manage to do was cover my ears and scream.

"Jo! Wake up! Wake up!" Said a voice as a pair of hands shook me awake.

I was snapped back into reality as I noticed it was Natalie who had her hand on my shoulder. She gave me a comforting look and I just couldn't take it anymore. She hands me a tray of food but I shook my head.

"I'm not hungry." I answered.

"Johana, it's been two days. You need to have to eat something." She said as she put the tray on the counter.

"It's my fault Ryan's stuck here in that hospital bed in fucking coma instead of me. I should've been the one who got hit. Not him." I scolded myself.

"It's not your fault sweetie. It was the person who ran Ryan over." She said trying to cheer me up.

"No. It's my fault. All my fault. The guys probably hate me for allowing this to happen."

"Johana don't say that! The guys don't hate you." She scolded me.

I pulled up a chair beside Ryan and grabbed his hand.

"Ryan... Baby, I'm so sorry this happened to you. I swear it should've been me." I said as I felt my vision get blurry.

"I never realized how much you were suffering after I left, but that song, you still love me even though I tried so hard to hate you. But now it's my turn to suffer. It's my turn to feel the pain that you had. Ryan I swear if you don't come out of that coma, I don't think I'll ever forgive myself."

"Miss Barretto, Miss Bartine, we need the room so we can run some tests on Mister Tedder." Said a nurse who placed a hand on my shoulder.

I leaned over and gave Ryan a kiss on the lips.

"I love you." I whispered as I got up from my chair and walked away from the room.

I sat down in front of Zach, Drew, Eddie, and Brent without saying a word.

I did my best in looking away from them, but I still felt like they were watching me. Judging me. Suddenly I felt the tears creep up on me and I couldn't take it anymore. I buried my face in my hands and started sobbing. Suddenly I felt somebody wrap their arms around me.

I looked up and saw Zach holding me in his arms.

"I'm so sorry Zach! This is my fault." I sobbed harder.

"It's okay sweetie it's not your fault. Just calm down." He said as he rubbed my back.

"Yes it is! I never should've been at that after party or none of this would've happened. I shouldn't have been mad at him. And now you guys probably hate me." I muffled as I buried my face into Zach's chest.

"No we're not." Answered Zach.

"Why would we be mad at you?" Asked Drew as he sat down next to me as well.

"You didn't know this would happen." Answered Eddie as both he and Brent came over to us, giving me a group hug.

"Johana Barretto?" A deep voice called out.

The five of us snapped our heads up to two detectives standing in front of us.

"Yes?" I answered as I wiped the tears from my eyes.