Hello my name Eleanor Marie collen or just call me ellie and Honestly my live is pretty Normal
"Eleanor give me beer right now"
Well expect maybe the fact that my own mother doesn't like me I tried to make her like but she just doesn't so why don't I just tell you my story
Age 3
"Listen to Me Eleanor Marie "
"Okay mommy"
"I don't like you I'm just going tell you this now that understand things a little more"
"Why not mommy"
"Because one you always call me mommy for some reason"
"But you are my mommy"
When I said I notice that I was starting to cry mainly because mommy told me this next
"Awe Is baby going cry because there mommy doesn't like them"
As I just look her awe
"Well shut it up you little brat"
"But..."
As she cut me off
"B....u....t nothing I also don't like you because you cry all the time and I don't care your a baby or what ever you don't need to cry"
By the time mommy finshed and dad came through the door
"Daddy"
As I ran up and hug him
"What the matter Ellie"
"Mommy doesn't like me"
As I give him puppy eyes
"She doesn't Iike you, why do you say that"
"Because she told me "
"And did you do something for her to say that"
"Nothing"
"Okay, I'm sure she didn't mean it "
"You promise"
'Yes, I'm sure"
As I hear him chuckled
Only if I knew then that wasn't true
Age 4
"Momma"
"What"
"When daddy coming home"
"How many times do I have to tell you. Your father never coming home "
"When can I see him then"
"On Tuesday and Thursday"
"How many days is that"
"Why don't you look on a calendar"
"Momma"
"What"
"You know that I can't read a calendar"
"Well that my not problem
"Daddy says it is"
Momma stand and walk over to me and pick me by my shoulder and look at me with her dark blue eyes and her brown hair flowing in the background as yelled at me "I don't care if your father say it my problem i said it your it your problem now go to your room you ugly brat"
As she drop me roughly on the floor
"I'm sorry mommy"
I ran to my room Crying
Only of it knew then that my mom was just stressed about work that day and maybe I wouldn't have ask that question
