Cryaotic X reader

Chapter 35

Cry POV

My mother used to tell me that ,"Right actions in the future are the best apologies for bad actions in the past." Sure they might, but what if those actions lead to someone hating you, using you, and ultimately losing their mind, all because of you. How does that just come up in a conversation?

Now. Quite frankly i dont really blame myself for any of this. Or any of what happened. But I do blame myself for not trying to help more. The doctors said she was to far gone, now...I honestly dont know.

All I can do is just protect Y/N with my life, and right now, I feel helpless, like a failure. Because I wasn't able to protect her and she is in pain. She needs help. The last thing I want is for her to be in pain at all. 

See before I met her, all I knew was darkness and videos. I seemed happy, and occasionally I was, while I was with my friends and playing video games. And Y/N, showed me a brighter way to life. A better way. While Jacy...Jacy gave me the illusion of a good life, of a better life. But it wasn't, believe me it wasn't.

Anyone get the reference?