TIAOM: untold secrets (gxg)

chapter 15 : flashback ( the more i get hurt)

AOM's POV

I was on the baracks..
Having a conversation with my mom on the phone..
I keep on saying sorry to her..
I really dont know why...

Mom: are you ok baby?

Aom: hmm..yes mom..

Mom: you sound like  youre not..

Aom: im just tired mom.its been a long day..

Mom;then take some rest...

Aom:ok mom..

Mom: if you have problems there..you can tell mom..ok? Im always here for you..

Aom: thanks mom...
I know..

Mom: i love you..and me and your dad was so proud of you..

I end up wiping my tears..
How could i handle this..
I dont want my parents to know about what im going through right now..
Cause they will be disappointed for sure...

I put up my phone on my side..and took a glass of water..when tina went in...

Tina: aom..i was looking for you..

Aom: why?

I said without looking at her..

Tina: i was worried...youve been so quite ..and... you just leave the set..after that.

Aom: i had headache..so instead of making you all worry..i just came back here..and took some rest..

She step.closer and rub my forehead..

Tina: are you sick?..

Aom : im fine..

Tina: wait..did you cry?

I look away..

Tina: aom? Did you cry? Why?

Aom: no..why would i cry? For what reason..

Tina: something wrong aom?whats the matter..please tell me..

Aom: tina! Im fine..can you just leave me here alone?

Tina: i will..but tell me first..whats happening..why did you cry?

Aom: i already said..nothing..im fine ..im ok tina...so please..
Just go back to the set..they must be looking for you...

Tina didnt leave. Beside..she move closer to me and spread her arms to hug me...

Aom: tina..please..leave me ..alone..

Tina: im sorry if i gave you hard time..
I know..its not easy..but we can handle this out together...im feeling the same way too aom..

That time i pushed her away..

Aom: what are talking about tina?

Tina; i already knew aom...

Aom: know what?

Tina: you feel the same way as i do..i felt it when we had that scene..where we kissed..it wasnt pie. It was you aom..

My heart wanted to get out..and tell tina..she was right..but my mom's words keep on stopping me..

AOM: seriously??.tina?...thats what you think the reason why i cried? Because im inlove with you?huh?

She was a little shocked..
And couldnt imagined that im going to say those words..

Aom: so you think that im hiding here...alone..because im having some unusual feelings for you? Is that a joke?
My god..how could you thought of that..

I saw her tears...its going to slowly fall down..so i turn away from her..

Aom; i already told you tina..im not gonna fall inlove with you..its impossible...

I didnt look back.until..i knew..she was gone....i know she i hurt her...
But thats the only way to ignore whats inside of me..