TIAOM: untold secrets (gxg)

chapter 64 ( let go and hold on)

Aom: I met him during my out of town trip.
He was nice , very considerate .

Tina: you love him?

Aom: ( nod ) i do, I love him Tina

Tina: are you happy with him?

Aom: every time were together, it feels like everything is smooth going, everything is perfect.

I'm started to get emotional again while those words she said still sinking on my mind

Tina; you know aom, since we broke up, I never loved someone else. I did wait for you, I have waited for you cause I believe that one day you will come back to me . I never lose my faith that someday you'll gonna missed being with me, and you'll finally choose me. But I guess that time won't come anymore.
Right? ( I'm already in tears)

Aom; I'm sorry Tina.

Tina; ( hold her hand) for the last time, I'm going to ask you this...
Do I need to let you go now?

Aom: ( sobbing) if I can be selfish, I would say no, don't let go. Don't let me go .
But I know it's wrong..it's wrong to hold on..
Cause I was the one who let go of you in the first place. I can't do it again. Coz I love you..
So I'm going to say yes Tina. You have you let go and start your life without me.

I slowly let go of her hand. And look away still tears keep on pouring from my eyes..I thought I had enough pain when we broke up  but this time it's more painful..

She stood up and gave me a kissed on my cheek .
I guess it was an indication that she's leaving...
I was just looking at the ground holding my chest, now I'm crying out loud .
I saw her walking away and I cant manage to let her leave, I guess I need to do it for the last time..
I ran into her...and grab her
And kissed her !
She didn't . I should have done that before.i should have fought for her..
As she let go me , I wanted to hold her still but I can't .

After that night, It wasn't easy but I tried to go on with my life. Aom stayed as my bestfriend. Always reminding me that I have keep on going.
I never thought it would be possible.. but I guess I had to accept the fact that I can't be more than a friend to her.
I already met Aom's boyfriend and he is truly a nice person , She really deserved Aom..
And me, I became busy with my new business " skin care products"
Well it has been a successful business and we have already clients from abroad. Maybe this is the new life aom had said to me.
She was right.
And here she goes.. keeps ringing on my phone.

Aom: hey sleepy head! Wake up!

Tina: so early aom..c'mon!

Aom: early? It 10 in the morning Ms. Suppanad! And you have a meeting with your new client right?

Tina: what time was it?

Aom: 10:45?

Tina; oh shoot! I forgot..I have to go now...bye

That's right , aom was my bestfriend and my living alarm. She doesn't get tired of reminding me about my appointments and meetings.
I guess I still have her in my life.

I have search a lot about this new client, and I'm a little bit curious about her... And finally im still on time..
And she didn't arrived yet.
I waited for her almost half and hour and then

Nara: sorry to keep you waiting...

A female soft voice coming from behind..and slowly I turned back. And was a little bit shocked after seeing her face.