TIAOM: untold secrets (gxg)

chapter 35 : flashback ( wrongsent)

Tina's pov

Knoon had been so quite even after that scene she had watch..

Even until we reached her unit..

Tina: knoon..

Knoon:hmm?

Tina: what's wrong?

Knoon: what's wrong?nothing...

Tina: then why are you like that??

Knoon: what??

Tina: is this about the scene??

She looked at me..then smile..

Knoon: what about the scene??..

Tina; that..you know what i mean..

Knoon: why? What does it mean?
You are just following whats on the script right??

Tina: ( nod)

Knoon: so...what time are you leaving tomorrow??

Tina: 5 am..

Knoon: so you wont able to see me..thats good..

Tina: what's good about that??

Knoon: i can drink the whole night..

Tina: what???

Knoon: you can leave now tina..

Tina:whats wrong with you??

Knoon: just leave..

Tina:  no..i wont leave until you tell me whats going on..

Knoon: hell! Youre so naive...do you really need to ask me tina??
Im
Jealous! Im paranoid! Im afraid! I dont know what im gonna do!!

she sat down on her bed..covering her face..

Knoon: its so hard tina..seeing you with the person you love before me..and by how you look at her  ..i want to tell myself that it was nothing.yet my mind keeps on telling me that there is something between you and her..

Tina: knoon...i already told you...there is nothing for you to worry.that i know my limits..you just have to trust me..

Knoon; im trying tina..but i cant help it..
Im so afraid that one day..youll just tell me that you had realize ..you still love aom..and you will leave me..

I kneel down infront of her..
And hug her..

Tina: please..stop crying knoon..it will never happen..i swear..

Knoon: yes..it will never happen tina..cause we have to stop now..

Tina: no..knoon..you will not do this..we dont have to do this. I love you..knoon please..

Knoon: i need space for myself tina..and this is for you too..
Maybe..being free would make you realize what you really want to have ...and what do you want to let go..

I know she is serious...
I tried controlling my tears...but i cant..it keeps on falling down from my eyes..

I didnt say anything again..i stood up..

Then step out of her room holding my chest..

Im not sure...i dont know..
We just broke up like that..she broke up with me..

I was walking ...approaching our house..im out of myself..i dont know what to do..my sister notice my eyes..she wanted to ask me..but i quickly entered my room..

I took my phone..and type a message for knoon..maybe this time..i would able to say what i wanted to say to her..which i didnt do earlier..

Knoon..im sorry..for hurting your feeling..i know im so stupid..and it wont be easy to make you feel better..
I know and im sure about my feelings for you..
Yes i admit..theres still a part of me who want aom..and i dont know how long it would take to forget her..but you are a big part of my life knoon..i just cant stop feeling this way everytime im with her..

After i sent that message..
I recieve a message from aom

Aom;  wrong sent