TIAOM: untold secrets (gxg)

chapter 31 : flashback ( phonecall )

TINA's POV

i brought knoon to a very romantic place it was at the rooftop of the condominium where she stayed..

Knoon: wow...romantic..im impressed..

I let her took her seat then i sat down also...
I pour a wine on her glass..
And to mine too..

Knoon: whats the occasion ?..

Tina; do we really need an occation to have a date?

Knoon: hmm..well..

She stares at me..trying to figure out what's on my mind..she usually do that..

Knoon: you wanna say something..
Right?

i smiled..she caught me again.

Tina:i love you..

Knoon: hmm..i know ..so say it..whats been bothering you?

Tina : ahm...

I hold her hand..

Tina: i recieve an offer from pnay..another project..

Knoon: thats good..wow..so that is the reason why you prepare all of this??hmm..

Tina: ahm..yeah..

Knoon: so? Who will you be working with?

Tina; aom..its the second part of yes or no..

Knoon: oh..

Tina; im so glad to have this project.

Knoon change her mood..

Knoon: really?

Tina: yes..arent you happy to hear that?

Knoon: i dont know..

Tina: why?

Knoon: you will be working with the girl you loved before tina..

Tina; nothing to worry knoon..just trust me..

Knoon: you know..i always support you in everything that you want..but not this time..

Tina: why knoon..?..why not?

Knoon: dont accept the project tina..

Tina: but..

Knoon: or accept it..then were through..

Tina: what ? Are you listening to your self??

Knoon: im serious..
Now..if you will still insist..maybe..lets stop talking to each other for now..think about it....ill go back to my unit..goodnight..

Tina: wait please..

Knoon: thanks for the dinner..

I leave knoon's place with heavy emotions..
im so confused..didnt know what to do..

When i arrived home..i directly went to my room..
I checked my phone ..hoping knoon has a message..but nothing..

I drop my body into my bed .
Closing my eyes..trying to figure out what would be the best decision to make..i want that project..but if it will cause a misunderstandings between me and knoon..should i still do it?..or just let the opportunity went away...

I remembered aom..she place her number on my phone..
I been searching for it..but i saw nothing..

Tina; where is it..

I found a contact # without a name..

So i tried calling to it..

A voice came out..and my heart beat so fast..

Aom: hello,?

Tina: ( swallowed ) ..he..hello..aom..

Aom: yeah. Who is this??

Tina: tina..

Aom: hmm..i knew it..just trying to be sure..why??

Tina: ahmm..can i ask about the schedule of the contract signing???

Aom: sure

Tina: when would that be??

Aom: on thursday..at pnay's place..

Tina: ahh..

Aom: what else??

Tina; nothing more..thanks..

Aom: ok...bye..

Tina; wait...

Aom: yes?

Tina: .are you doing something?

Aom: no...

Tina: can..can we talk..?

Aom: about ?

Tina: about choosing between what you want...and what you need to do..

Aom; aha..what about that?

Tina: what if you have this one thing you really wanted ..then suddenly that something could also ruined everything..would you still able to get that something? Or just let it go..so you wont having a hard time for everything..

Aom: tina..? Is this really you??huh??

Tina: yes aom..this is me..and i need your words now..

Aom: well..maybe..that fear of losing everything just came from your mind..
And this something who you said you really want ..was coming from your heart..
Its the battle between whom you wanted to follow..your heart or your mind...so which is the strongest? You think?

Tina:can i..mention a name?

Aom: hmm

Tina; that everything i was fear of losing is knoon..

Aom: and that something?

Tina; is the project pnay was offering..

Aom: knoon doesnt want you to do the yes or no 2?

Tina; yes..

Aom: then..tell pnay..that there might be a conflict between you and knoon if you accept this..

Tina: but...i really want it aom..

Aom: ahmm can i ask?..why does knoon doesnt want you to do this project??

Tina:maybe..because she is afraid ..

Aom: afraid of what..

Tina: afraid that something could change everything..

Aom didnt speak ..

Tina: she has a fear that if..im going to be with you again..
My feelings for you will be alive again..

Aom: why??is it gone now?...

I didnt answered..
But if i will ..i would say no..
It never dies..its still here...being kept..