Tough Love | g.d |

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I pushed him away from me, the moment he did it.

What the hell just happened?

"Ethan, why," I shook my head. "You shouldn't of done that."

"I know but, I wanted to."

What now?"

"What? What the hell, do you not see that I'm with your brother?"

"I know that but,"

"No, Ethan there shouldn't be a but. You clearly know that I'm with your brother, who I love, why on earth would you do that?"

"Because I like you okay?"

It felt like my heart just fell and my whole world just stopped moving. I couldn't even look at him.

"And I know that, thats not going to help this situation right now but, I've developed feelings for you but, you must have seen that coming. I thought they would of went away but, the more that I spent time with you, the more I fell for you and and at this point, I don't know if I want them feelings to go away or not."

"What about Indyiah? You promised that you wouldn't hurt her."

"I'm not going to lie, I really did like her but, she's not- she's not you Sarah."

Well, then.

"Ethan, common..."

"I can't hep how I feel, Sarah. You of all people should know that, after all thats what you told Grayson about Aaron."

"I know that and I don't expect you to but, why?"

"Why what?"

"Why do you like me all of a sudden? You know if-"

"All of  a sudden?" He shook his head in disapproval. "No, Sarah, its not all of a sudden, its been a while. I'm just good at hiding things."

"Thats not the point here, Ethan."

"Then what is?"

"What if Grayson finds out? You saw how he reacted when he knew how Aaron felt. You're his brother which makes this worse. What if he leaves me?"

"Don't say that."

"I can't - I'm just going to go because I can't deal with this right now. He's going to find out and then leave me or else he's just going to be disappointed in you or worse, he's going to loose trust in me."

I began walking out once again but, I felt that same familiar hands pull me back.

He was refusing to give up.

He repeated his process from before, once again, he planted his lips on top of mine but, this time I didn't stop him or push him away.

After a few minutes, I knew it was wrong, I pushed him off.

"Stop doing that."

"I can't," He tried kissing me again but, I moved away in time. "I won't."

"Ethan, I'm with Grayson. This is wrong. I know that I developed feelings for you, in return but, thats the worse part. The thought of loose him, is going to kill me." We made eye contact before I spoke once more. "When I walk away this time, don't lay a finger on me."