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She said that she wasn't giving up on me and that she wasn't leaving until we fixed this. When she said that, it made my heart race, but it still doesn't change the fact that I feel like she's still into Ethan.

But, can you blame me? She came out and said it herself that Ethan's been more of a boyfriend to her in the last 2-3 days then I have, whats that suppose to me? 

Okay, I'll admit I've been spacing myself with her because of her saying that, but I probably shouldn't of been so distant saying that I do complain that she always runs to Aaron whenever we fight.

That probably made me sound like a total hypocrite.

I went out to look for her, alone. I told Ethan to stay in the house because I needed to do this on my own.

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After an hour of looking for her, I found her at our place.

I didn't want to bother her because she looked like she was peaceful, but I didn't want to keep being distant from her. I haven't said anything to her in the last 3 days and that makes me sound like an awful boyfriend.

"Hey, can we talk?"

When she turned around, she looked at me for a split second then turned back around to watch the waves.

"Oh wow, so he does speak. What do you want Grayson?"

"I know that I've been distant from you lately and I'm sorry for that. I'm also sorry that I've been so awful, that you think Ethan is be a better boyfriend than I am."

Sarah's pov.

Shit.

I hope he doesnt think that I'm actually with him, I know that it would crush him, but it crushed me when he ignored me for the past few days, and how he told Aaron that I was with him. That hurt.

He had/had trust issues believing in me again since he found out that I had feelings for E, in the first place, but them feelings for him went away.

Ethan has been trying his hardest to move on away from his feelings, but I don't know how successful he has been with it.

I've been telling him repetitively amount of time that I don't want any other guy because there isn't any other guy that I'd want to be with. From the time that he thought I liked Matt, to the different times that he thought I wanted to be with Aaron.

It's always been him, it'll always be him.

"Babe."

His eye flickered over, onto mine.

"Please tell me that you don't actually think that I'm dating him."

We lost the eye connection due to him looking off to another direction. With him doing that, I knew what the answer to that question was.

"Are you serious?" I asked laughing, but it was more of an annoying laugh tone. "How many times do I have to tell you that there isn't any other guy that I want?"

"Not enough, I guess."

"Apparently not," I climbed onto of him, wrapping my legs around his torso. "I want you, I want us, I want this to work, I need for you to trust me again. I don't want Ethan, I never had. You're the only one that I want."

We made eye contact again.

"I love you, Grayson and I'm sorry that I even caught the feelings for him in the first place. I know that I should have, but I can't go back and change -"

His lips collided against mine, interrupting my sentence.

"You talk too much."

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