Losing Trust (sequel to Secret Admirer) ON HOLD

Chapter Nineteen. A MESS

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"When are you leaving?" Alex asks.

"Umm. After school today. Tell Aria that my aunt phoned and said I had to go straight to her house."

"Okay." Sascha says releasing me. "Let's go back in."

They both return into the room but I sit down, putting my head in my hands. Have I made the right decision?

"Oh guys!" I say before they go in.

"Yeah?" Alex asks.

"Scratch the other plan completely. We don't need to do that anymore." I say.

"Okay." Sascha says.

"Oh and promise whatever you do or whatever happens, you won't tell Aria... or anyone."

They nod and walk inside. I lean back on a chair, looking at the ceiling. This is for Aria. I'm doing this because I care. No one will get hurt if I disappear. Everything will be better without me. I stand up and walk back into the room when Aria is.

"Is Aria awake?" I ask.

"Not ye-" Alex starts but gets interrupted.

"Yeah." Aria says, sitting up abruptly, "where am I? Where is Mia?" She looks around angrily.

"Probably somewhere beating someone else up for her entertainment." Alex says.

I walk towards her and inspect her face, putting one hand on her cheek. I look at her bruises and cuts and suddenly feel so bad. I did this. It's good I'm leaving. She turns away and I raise my eyebrows. I see her blushing. I chuckle and making me smile, "Aria." I say.

"Umm. Yes?" She says, slowly looking back at me.

"You have mud on your face." I say, putting my hand on her cheek again and wiping the mud off but making our faces even closer making her blush again. Wait no. I draw back quickly and look away. I can't do this to her. I'm leaving.

"What is it?" She asks

"I-I need the toilet. My stomach hurts a bit." I say quietly and stand up but she grabs my hand.

"No it isn't. What are you doing really?" She says. She knows me too well.

"Aria." I laugh, "I actually need the toilet. I had a sudden stomach pain. That's why I spoke quietly." She nods, "Aria?"

"Yeah?" She asks.

"Let go." I whisper.

She realises she's still holding my arm and immediately let's go, "whoops. Sorry."

"Dummy." I whisper and I hear her shout at me as I walk out making me laugh. No. Stop.

I sit in the waiting room and look at the ceiling. I should just leave now. Wait. I could. I could say that my Aunt is calling me. I wait a few minutes then I walk back inside.

"Alex. I need to talk to you." I say.

"What is it?" Both Sascha and Aria ask.

"It's a secret." I whisper, winking at them. I pull Alex outside and shut the door.

"What is it?" He asks, a worried look on his face.

"I'm leaving now. I can't do this to Aria anymore. When we go inside, call me in secret and I'll pick up my phone, pretending to be talking to my aunt." I say sadly.

"Are you sure?" He asks, raising his eyebrows.

"Yeah. I'm sure." I sigh and he nods.

"Let's go back inside. Actually, I'll get my phone ready now but I'll put the volume on zero so no one can tell I'm the one calling you." He says, getting his phone ready. We walk back inside after he finishes with his phone.

"So... Can you tell us?" Aria asks.

"They said it was a secret. We should keep it that way. You're so nosy." Sascha says, laughing at the end. I could tell she knew that the 'secret' was about me leaving.

"Aww fine...." She pouts, looking away. I take the chance to look at Alex to signal for him to call me. He nods and my phone immediately rings.

"Oh. I better take this." I say and everyone nods.

I walk outside and end the call. I sit down in a seat in the waiting room once again and look at the ceiling. Once again.

This is such a mess.