Every Man For Himself (Pirate!England X Reader)

Gone

(This chapter fucking disappeared for some reason :( I had to remake it) I'm so mad >:(
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One and a half bottles of whiskey in and my head was buzzing. I sit up and salute the bartender and he smiles back at me.

'I need to go outside and find Arthur.. It's already 5 o'clock'
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"Ill see you later!" You yell and leave the tavern. You looked to your left and noticed Arthur's ship being filled with the last of the cargo boxes so you headed towards it.

Few people passed you and stared, remembering what happened at the masquerade ball you were honored in. You smiled and nodded curtly.
There was a skip in your step and you only noticed it when the scuffling under your feet kicked up dust. It made you chuckle softly. Arthur was the only thing that could make you this happy.

Once you got to the docks a hand rested on your shoulder, startling you.

"Ah..! Lo siento.. I didn't mean to scare you.. Can I speak with you??" The Spaniard looked at you sadly and you recognized him as the man who called you a whore and offered to kill you.. "I just wanted to tell you that I am so sorry for how we.. I... treated you in the past.. lo siento.. I truly am sorry." You just looked at
him, staring into his soul silently.

His look went from sadness to worry.

"It's alright. Orders are orders and I'm glad you followed them. Just don't piss me off again, okay??" You chuckle and pat his shoulder.
"Si! Si! I won't..!" He smiles back and leads you towards the ship.

"I'm guessing you want to see the Captain?? He'll be in his room, probably pacing back and forth." He sighs and hops onto the ship, holding his hand out for you to grab. You gripped onto his hand and he lifted you up onto the deck. Once you were on the ship you turned to the stairs that led to his quarters.

"I'll see you around....?"
"Antonio, you can call me Toni if you want to."
"Well, Antonio, I'll see ya around." You salute him and he nods as you walk off.

—-Timeskipppppp—-

You stood in front of Arthur's door and knocked softly.
"What now?!" He snarled through the door. You take a deep breath and grip the door handle.
You opened it slowly and looked at him, he was hunched over his desk looking at a candlelit map.
The door shut hard and he turned around angrily.

"CANT YOU SEE IM-.... busy.."

"Arthur.."
His anger falters as he sees you standing there. He noticed you were cleaned up and smelled a bit like whiskey. His face goes from surprise to guilt.

"I'm sorry, Love, I thought you were one of the crew."

His eyes never left your form as you walked over to the map and looked at it, studying the route he was taking. He had to maneuver around France and Portugal to get to Spain, then sail to Italy, back to Spain, and back to England.

You sigh sadly and two arms wrap themselves around your waist slowly. He yawns and buries his face in the crook of your neck.

"I'm really.. really going to miss you." He breathes in your scent and sighs. Your eyes start to water so you lean your head into his. "I'm gonna miss you too."

"Is that so??" He pecks your neck softly and you turn to face him. His eyes travel from your lips up to your eyes.

"Are you crying, Love??" He smirks and pulls your face closer.
"No.. It's just.. allergies." You wipe your eyes in embarrassment but he grabs your chin and forces you to look him in the eye.
"Don't lie to me, Lass. I know we just found each other but once I'm back, I'm back for good. I promise."

"Don't promise.. what if you get lost at sea? Or get hurt and never come back? What if.. what if.. you find someone new..?" A tear falls down your cheek and he wipes it away with his thumb, furrowing his eyebrows.

"I never want to hear you say anything like that ever again. I spent 4 years without you and I thought of no woman like I thought of you." He looks deep into your eyes, "I love you to the moon and back and there's nothing in this world I wouldn't do for you."

"I love you." You lean in and catch his lips in a smoldering kiss. All emotions pour out as you two mold into an aura of passion.

His calloused hand grab yours softly and guide them down his strong chest. As your fingertips graze the buckles on his coat, your face starts to burn. He breaks away from you and smirks.

"Are you nervous, Love?" You look up at him and blush. You give a small nod and he chuckles. "You don't need to be, I won't try anything, until I get back." He grins devilishly and your face burns red, "But when I do get back.. I'm going to fu-" You hurriedly put a finger over his lips. A smirk finds its way to his lips.

"That doesn't mean we can't cuddle and make out, does it??" You blush and smile. His face turns a soft red and he chuckles.

"Is that an offer, Love??" He grins evilly at you.

"Yes. it is."

"Glad to hear it." He grabs you by the waist and leads you to the bed to cuddle. He plants his lips onto yours once more and lays you down gently, crawling between your legs and embracing you.

You roll him over quickly so you're straddling him with a smirk. "Who said you could be the dominant one?" You lean down and pepper kisses on his neck.

He pushes you over and holds your wrists beside your head "I say so." He kisses you hard and presses himself against you. You blush deeply and wrap your legs around his waist while he digs his left hand into your hair, his right hand gripping the bottom of your thigh harshly.

Your hands find themselves gripping his hair roughly as he kisses down to your neck and sucks on your sensitive collarbone.

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It was 6 o'clock and I was getting ready to leave. Arthur was still on the bed, watching me put my coat back on.

"I'm gonna miss you, (Y/N)." I smile at him and he stands up from the bed, small creaks coming from the wood.

"Come," I hold my hand out for him and he grabs it, "Walk me out." He smiles and leads the way, looking back at me before opening the door and walking me down the hallway.

Once we reached the deck, he grabbed both of my hands and looked at the blazing sunset.

"I'll be back before you know it. I'll try to write you."

"You better." I kiss him on the cheek slowly and smile at him.

"I'll let you leave, now. I love you, (Y/N)."

"I love you too, Arthur." The two of you kiss one last time before you jump from the ship and watch him order his men to set sail.

As the boat slinks away, your mind is overcome with harsh boredom. Your face falls into a scowl.

"Fuck."

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The wind was blowing through your hair as the stranger's horse galloped quickly on the cobblestone streets. The large castle up ahead came into view and you gazed at it lovingly. The sound of laughter came from afar and you smiled, knowing it was your crew.

"Yah!" You yell and hit your heels on the horses stomach, making him run even faster. The trees wizzed past you and the sound of conversations and bottles clinking got louder.