My Nerdy Boy Transformed Into A Bad Ass

Chapter 7 I Love and Miss Her... But I Have To Let Her Go

I decided to do Nathan's POV so I hope you love it and don't mind :-)

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Nathan's POV:

Giving her that letter was so hard. But I need to let her go. I'm in this shit and I can't get out without killing someone I love in the process like Skylar.

But I'll be honest, I was jealous seeing her with another man. but again I have to let her go even after seeing her a month ago when I was in the middle of something...

Anyway I walked back to my apartment and ignored everyone else. And by 'everyone else' I mean the guys that are in my business. We were pretty close and normally did the killing people for me but I got their backs. I got in my room and I immediately sat on my bed and undressed down to my boxers and laid down.

But I couldn't sleep as I hadn't been able to for last month. Why? well I got that pretty little brunette named Skylar in my head every night. After those douches took her away from me I was thinking about her like this but a billion more beatings and a few months later, I snapped. I turned off my emotions completely. I stopped crying over her and the douches who beat me. I still have the scars where they used knives and other weapons. they did worse than that but I'm not going to say. finally though, three guys came in and saved me, and those three are sleeping in their rooms in this apartment right now. after this thought I fell straight to sleep.

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Skylar's POV:

I couldn't believe that after the first few months of thinking of him every night as I laid in bed. Then that's when I made the full out vow. and then after all those years of pain and regret for not fighting harder for him, I see that letter.

I read it over and over and over as I sat in my bed. what did he mean when I saw him a month ago? I thought back. The only thing I can think of is... That stranger I saw kill someone! But how could that be him? He was so caring and sweet and the letter proved that. But I guess... Oh no! those kidnappers changed him! Made him kill people so that he would eventually love killing people because when I saw him he was the same but yet different.

He still had those same blue eyes and that brown hair that brought them out, and his smell still smelled almost the same but there was a hint of cologne in his homey smell, which was sexy. But did he know who I was when he saw me? It was dark so I didn't think he really saw my face and neither did I so that's why I didn't realize it was him and plus it's been what? Like 4-5 years since the kidnapping so his facial features and body would have been more matured. now that I think about it, I saw his bulging arms through that shirt As he was getting ready to kill the dude and damn! He beat the shit out of puberty!

I need to stop all of this. I'm crying while thinking about how he looked then and comparing it to now. Before he was a bit nerdy but still dressed normal and now he looks like a badass, with that damn leather jacket and his face was so close to mine when he threatened me which actually both scared me and aroused me.... WOOH THERE! Slow your roll Skylar! Your with Will now. Calm your fucking hormones! But I can't help it... He was my first love and now that I've seen him again and didn't realize until now, I wanted to see him despite what he said in the letter. Maybe I could get Jason to search for him? Yeah I'll ask him.

My thoughts all of a sudden went back to that night... When me and Nathan were in that room.... Alone... No. Don't think about it. But it was too late and I squeezed my eyes shut and covered my ears as I heard the cries of Nathan when those fucking assholes hurt him. I started sobbing and mumbling to myself to stop thinking until I was shouting to myself "STOP! STOP!" And Jason ran in and hugged me but it didn't help as I pleaded him to make it stop! The memories kept coming like a horrible nightmare.

I was finally able to hear what Jason's was saying "Skylar, breathe. Just breathe." He looked scared. this used to happen when I first got home and Jason was in his last year of college when he saved me so I had no one to hold me or anything. my parents ignored me most of the time or would yell at me saying "shut the fuck up and good to sleep" or other hurtful things like "that kid never loved you, so quit crying over him." they said that more and more until I started believing it. but now Jason was here and I listened to him and breathed slowly. it worked but still I asked sheepishly "could you sleep with me, please?" he smiled sadly and said "sure Sky, you didn't have to ask really. I know when your screaming like that you won't be able to sleep alone." I smiled thankfully at him.

Even when I was younger I would crawl in his bed and he wouldn't say anything and cuddled me to him. and he did just that but he asked "uh do you want me to put some clothes on?" I just noticed he was only in boxers but I just shrugged and said "your fine. just lay down please." And he did and pulled me to his chest, my head in his neck.

I loved the smell of my brother. it smelled safe. yes he was only in boxers but who gives a damn? not like we are doing something inappropriate. Just two siblings, one comforting the other while she felt like she was losing her mind at the moment and soon after Jason started running his hands up and down my spine comfortingly, I fell asleep.

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Hello! I am Lindsey Lohan! Lol I'm not but I hope you liked that chapter! don't you just love sibling relationships like Skylars and Jason's. me and my bro are pretty close but not as close as them! The last time I slept in the same bed with my brother was when I was a baby! Anyways goodnight! I don't feel well :( my throats sore but I still wrote despite how I felt! K. love you, and bye!