Aquiver (Sequel)

Worrying

Aquiver ~30

•Charlotte Carpenter•

"Jacob, wait up!" I call after him. He reaches the lake and stood there now facing away from me. Once I reach him, I start to wrap my arms around his waist when he undoes the wrapping of my arms as he turns around. "What's wrong?" I ask worriedly.

"Why don't you go ask Hayes? I'm sure he'd love to comfort you and be with you," he says bitterly.

"I-I... don't understand." I'm confused and feeling small. He has been so comforting and nice this past week. I don't understand the change in his tone.

"Go away Charlotte. I really can't be around you right now." Suddenly I feel a little scared. He's going to leave. I don't know what I've done wrong.

"I can fix this. What did I do wrong?" I whisper hopelessly wanting to fix whatever is on his mind.

"You can't fix anything!" He fires back and I see rage and a cold stare. I try to reach for his hand, but he slaps my hand away and I felt a sting to the side of my hand. I bring my other hand to the pain and I bite the inside of my cheek.

"I-I'll try. Please let me help you with whatever the problem is."

"You're the problem! I can't do this. I'm not going to date you and you're just too much to handle!"

"Don't do this," I say feeling weak. "You swore just last night."

"Swore?" He laughs. "Yeah, I said when we're together. We're nowhere even near being together in a relationship right now."

"I-I was going to ask if we could go on a cute date today."

"No. Definitely not," he says harshly. "Go back to Hayes. You're clearly not over him." Why is he bringing him back into this?

"Hayes and I aren't getting back together. I've told you that," I say lightly.

"Just go back to him. I'm sure you'll feel fine after, becuase you're just using me."

"I'd never use you." I feel hurt and beyond confused. "I'd never use you. I like you Jacob."

"That is complete bullshit. You want to know something? It was my fault for falling for you. I was an idiot and should have gone for a girl like Sandra." I look down feeling lost and weak. I thought he said he'd wait for me? I thought we were alright?

"Did you want to be together? We can be officially together if you want. I didn't know this was going to be a problem of going slow." I can't identify the problem. My mind is spinning wanting to fix whatever the problem is.

"Are you dumb or something? I said I don't want anything to do with you! How again did you get into college?" My eyes blurs and I feel myself breaking. Feeling humiliated.

"I'll leave," I say barely audible. "I'm going to go on a walk for a bit." I look up at Jacob and he looks like he could kill someone at any moment. I slowly turn away from him to walk away off towards one of the pathways towards the woods.

I hold my throbbing hand in pain as I start to jog away distancing myself. I need to be alone. It's the only thing I'm apparently good at.

~thirty minutes later~

I come to an open area of the woods where there is a grassy plain and come to stop. I am deeply out of breath and feeling broken and tired. I let out a big sob as I fall to my knees. I shake tremendously as I continue to sob into the open. My hands fists the grass and I bring my forehead to the ground.

Soon I let my body fall and I am on my side as I sob and let the heavy tears flow. Why is he doing this to me? I clearly don't understand why he's raging mad at me. We were fine just last night right before I fell asleep in the waiting room at the hospital. Jacob must have carried me to the car and into the bed so I don't understand what went wrong.