NCT DOYOUNG FANFIC // Love was the Language I Didn't Know

19: Confrontation

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"Minlee, what's wrong? Please....why are you being like this?"

"I just...it just took me some time to realize the truth. There's nothing more to say." Should I actually tell him? But I feel that if I do, I'll start crying....

"I think there's something wrong though. Just tell me."

"I mean, I want to tell you, but I feel like you should have already known! Can't you think of anything that might be the reason??" Doyoung reaches for my hand.

"Please..just tell me."

"Ahh! Can't you see!? This can't work!! I don't like it!! I don't like it when you deceive everyone like this!! Your fans...they love you.. I'm a fan too, I know how it feels to idolize people like you. And you make them believe in you. They worship people like you, and you have no idea. I don't know what who I'm doing this for...me or your fans. Anyhow, I just don't think this is right!"

"So then Minlee, what do you want me to do!!! Tell me!!! Do you want me to give up on my dream??!! To never perform, to never attend a fanmeeting ever again!??!!

"No...it's just...ugh! I don't know!! I don't want to be in this situation at all!!"

"Look Minlee, I really like you. Really. I like you alot.. but please..don't make me choose between you and my dream career."

"Ahh it's not that!! It's just....I really.... Are you willing to tell all your fans about me? Do you think I feel happy when your fans hug you and tell you they love you? Or when you let them say all that and act cute and giggly?? Think about it, please.."

"...."

"Doyoung...really... I don't know what to do...I just feel...maybe..we should stop. I just...I can't see a future with us together unburdened. I barely started a love life and already I'm such a wreck...and I'm still so young. I don't think I was ready for a relationship anyways."

"....Message me when you're ready. Until then Minlee, do whatever you want."

Doyoung sternly heads back down to the other members. I lug my luggage in and begin to bawl immediately after. Being so confused and conflicted began to hurt my heart and my performance so quickly. I really, really liked Doyoung.

Maybe I actually loved him.

But what I said still held true. I don't think I was ready for this relationship. I don't think I was mentally trained to date a celebrity. Perhaps Doyoung thought I was overreacting and insensitive, to which I already admit to that. But am I really to blame? It takes hard work to achieve such a level of understanding... a level I haven't reached. I really do need time.... Doyoung...please understand me.

I fall asleep, smudging my pillow with wet streaks of mascara and blush that I had not bothered to wash off

-

I was awaken by my phone, which was placed right next to my face. I look at the caller ID...Leiyah??!! Why would she call me now when she knows our time discrepancy?

"Leiyah?"

"Minlee....Hah, I didn't think you'd answer! Good morning!"

"Yeah um no... what do you want?"

"Actually, I kinda forgot about the time difference..I guess I was really anxious to tell you right away.."

"What??!"

"Well...do you remember our science teacher for last semester. He was fired for some reason...but well.."

"Yeah...well what?"

"Basically, the principal sent in a new teacher which means a whole reset of our science grades..."

"Okay...where is this going?"

"Ok, welll....

All our marks have been reset...which means we all stand at nothing for a mark, but it's not really a problem for us, since we'll get tested and we'll get like, legit marks.

It's a problem for you though... I heard the principal was going to call your parents but I guess it's better to hear it from me..

Since you're not at school, you can't get tested and anything, which means your science mark will be set at 0"

"Yeah...but can't they just use my previous marks?"

"Well, the teacher knows you're from Mensa, but it's unfair you know...to just assume you'll pass.."

"But my previous science marks-"

"-are gone. The principal refuses to use them since the teacher was exposed for some...bad things.. She doesn't trust anything left by him.

Minlee, you know...if you fail an important subject like science...you won't be able to graduate on time.."

"oH My god Leiyah!! Does this mean.."

"Minlee, I think it does. I think sooner or later, you might have to decide whether you stay in Korea and fail, or cancel your internship.. You're going to have to choose your work, or your grades.."

"Nonsense. I'm smart!!! How can they do this to me!! I've made everything up before I left, but because our science teacher was fired, I can't graduate??!"

"I don't know I don't know...I hope not but I really don't know what other method the school is going to have for you..."

My world began to spin. Was this really all happening to me?

"Minmin, I'm here for you..Let's talk after you get some sleep. It's late"

"Ok.. bye" Leiyah..I really wish you were here with me right now. I really, really need someone. I am so lonely and sad...I don't know what to do for anything.

For the second time today, I cried myself to sleep, unsure of what my blurry future had in store for me.

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