Is It Love? (An Our2ndLife/Jc Caylen/Connor Franta Fanfiction)

Chapter 31

***Veronica’s POV***

He stared in disbelief as the confession hit him.

“You.. you do?” He asked me.

I wasn’t going to say it again, so instead I just nodded. This wasn’t where I thought the night would be headed, and for the first time, telling someone about what I did to myself made me feel relieved. Anytime I had talked about it before, I had felt overwhelmed, but sitting here with Jc, it felt right to be able to speak about my past.

“If you don’t mind me asking, why do you do it?” He asked, his eyes full of concern. His expression was thoughtful, not intrusive.

As I looked down, I began to weigh my options. I wanted to get this off my chest, because even though I had talked to Connor about it, he wasn’t relatable. I needed to talk to someone who knows what it felt like. Someone like Jc.

I tugged on the rubber band resting on my right wrist as I made my decision. With a deep sigh, I began to explain everything that had happened with my parents. How my dad was, and how he died. The words came easily, and I realized that I didn’t feel nervous at all. I felt.. comfortable.

Tears were no longer rolling down my face, and my breathing stayed steady throughout the whole explanation. When I was done, I looked up to Jc to see his reaction.

“So.. your dad is dead now?” He asked for confirmation.

“Yeah, he drove his car off of a bridge into a lake. They never found him, but it was his car,” I responded.

Jc turned forward so that he was facing the wheel in the parked car. He breathed in heavily a few times, taking all of the fresh information in. The concern never left his face, but he successfully calmed down a little.

“Your turn,” I said lightly, poking his upper arm. This brought a small smile to his face, and I was glad that I could still do that.

“You don’t have to tell me anything either, if you don’t want to,” I added.

It seemed like forever before he responded. He turned his body back to face me, and placed one hand on my thigh while the other hovered on my cheek.

My heart rate quickened, but this time it wasn’t because of my past, it was because of him.

I suddenly realized how close we were sitting, and almost made a move to back up. Before I could, Jc spoke up.

“I want to tell you,” He started. “It’s just that I haven’t told anyone before. Like anyone. Not even Kara.”

“It’s ok, you can talk to me,” I encouraged him to communicate.

***Connor’s POV***

“Wha- what do you mean?” I asked the girl sitting in front of me. I had to ask, even though I was pretty sure I already knew what she was talking about.

“I’m in love with someone who doesn’t love me, and probably never will. Because he’s in love with someone else,” She tried to explain, but it only made me more confused.

Did Jennifer.. love me?

Before I had any time to think about it, she had leaned so close to me that I could smell the strawberry lip gloss that she was wearing.

She breathed slowly onto me, whispering words so softly that I almost couldn’t hear them.

“You know exactly what I mean,” Were the words that she uttered, making my blood run cold.

Was this girl even capable of love? Did she even know what that word meant? Because I did; I knew that I loved Veronica, and no one else, especially not the girl sitting in front of me.