Still Into You (Ongoing)

CHAPTER 3

How can you let go of someone that easy if that someone is your first in everything?

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ALRISH

After working for hours i finally got up,checked and cleaned the shop a bit myself (nauuna kase umuwi si Mia) closed it and make myself ready for tonight.

Hell yes. Im going to bar myself alone to take some shots ,enjoy and be numb. Be numb from the pain i feel inside. Im still in awe from the unexpected meeting between me , Sam and her newest girl.

I texted no one. I never invited anyone because i feel that i have to deal with this alone. Ngayon ko lang gagawing uminom mag isa and it made me a bit nervous but a little excited as well. Pagkarating ko ay nagtext muna ako kay mama na may dadaanan lang ako kunware saglit.

I found a nice spot around the corner and walk over there. Di ko na pinag aksayahan ng oras tignan ang name ng bar. Hindi ako pumunta sa bar ni kuya Jasper kase malakas ang pakiramdam ko na dun magkikita kita sila Sam at ng mga kaibigan nya kase sabi nya nga kanina kikitain nya ang mga ito tonight. Mahirap na baka ma.spot.an pa nila ako at masira na naman ang gabi ko. Sira na nga ang umaga ko eh.

I wave towards a waiter approaching and ordered the set b in the menu containing a full glass of vodka. I badly need a lot  of alcohol tonight. Yes, Ill get wasted.

F*ck. Nagmuka akong ewan sa harap nila kanina. Like really? Hindi ko alam how to act right  infront of her. Just great. Now my defenses ive built for so long are actually getting down easily.
Nai.stress akoooooo !!!

I hold my thought as the waiter comes back with my drink, a bucket of ice,a bottled water,a sizzling platter , a shot glass and slices of lemon with salt beside it all in a small plate.

I smiled and nod at him then pour my glass some when he left. . .

I shot my drink

"Hoooh. ang pait" but it does not really matter. I bit some lemon. I pour my glass again and drink once more.

and again.

and once again without pausing.

"Whoa. I think someone's getting herself wasted", a stranger sat beside me lustfully looking at me from head to toe."Can i join you?

Im not a wasalak pero this night feels that ill become one ,for once. I pour another and straightened it up again just wanting to ignore whoever it is trying to flirt with me.

The stranger then sip from the bottle of beer he is holding ,stayed quiet and just looks at me. I dont really care, I just kept on drinking.

Maya maya nakaramdam na ako ng pag iinit ng pisngi at kaunting pamamanhid.

I smiled bitterly.This is what i want to feel right now to suck the pain.sinusukol ako ng sarili kong damdamin. Pagkakita ko sa kanya alam ko na talaga na after all these years wala pa ding nagbabago sa nararamdaman ko. Sya parin ang gusto ko and i cant f*cking control, it sucks.

Pero sya? Nakalimutan na nya ako. Napalitan. Ganung kadali para sa kanya. Palibhasa maganda sya, mayaman sya,she can have what or whoever she wants ng walang kahirap hirap.

F*CK !!!!!

"It hurts"i hold back my tears then drink some more. Pero hindi na nagpapigil at masaganang tumulo lahat ng luha ko na ikinagulat ng nasa harap ko.

"Okay ka lang miss?"tanung nya na halata ang pagkagulat.

Tumango lang ako at parang batang pinunasan ang mga luha ko gamit ang aking braso at suminghot. Inabot ko ang baso sinalinan at ininum muli ito. tumagay ng isa pa at ininum uli. Kahit malasing ako basta makalimutan ko sya kahit ngayon lang.