Still Into You (Ongoing)

CHAPTER 33

Samantha

"Why are you holding my phone? May tumawag ba ? may nagtext?". I grab my phone from Roxy after seeing her holding it. Mukhang kinukutuban ako ng di maganda sa pagkakahawak nya dito.

"Someone did. Tinawagan ko nga eh!". paasik nyang sagot at naupo sa gilid ng kama.

"Dont tell me its Alrish?". sabi ko na nga at may ginawa na naman syang kalokohan.

"Is there something you want to tell me? Like the real score between you and her huh? Why the f*ck her name saved there as HEART?". kunot noo at salubong ang mga kilay nya ng itanong yon sakin. mababakas sa muka nya ang sobrang galit na kanina pa nya pinipigil.

And what am I going to say? I still wanted to protect her feelings. After all she is one of those people who help me get on with my life without Al before. I dont wanna be selfish pero ngayon I dont know. Kase how can I explain to her na hindi ko na mafufulfill yung pangako ko sa kanya back when we were on states. That I will definitely learn to love her.

"Aaaansssweer meeee Daaaammnn".
she stood up screaming onto my face. She was out of control again with anger and started to threw things she'd hold.

"Hey Roxy.  Rox. . . Stop please". niyakap ko sya patalikod upang pigilan ang pagwawala nya. Unti unti ko syang pinakalma ngunit nagpupumiglas padin sya and this time she was crying. "I think this is not the right time for us to talk about that. Please calm your self down for a bit".

"Roxy? Pangalan nalang? Dont you think I would not know? All these times Samantha. I am just observing..". she turned around na parang sumusuko at luhaang tumingin sakin.  I can also feel her pain pero hindi ko alam kung paano ako magpapaliwanag sa kanya.

Na muli kong minahal si Alrish. Na mas tumindi lang yung pagmamahal ko kay Alrish. Hindi ko na kayang maglihim pero kailangan. Because I dont want Roxy to suffer. This is my fault.Pero paano? Si Roxy na ang nasasaktan.

"Now tell me how to calm down Sam", she hold my face with her both hands and show how hurt she is"I did my best to stop you from loving her Again. Pero you insist na ilapit ang sarili mo sa kanya araw araw and with that you're killing me".

"Please. Let me settle this issue bago naten pag usapan yan babe". I felt being stabbed after calling her using that bullshit callsign again para lang kumalma sya.

Her face suddenly glows and started to smile while wiping her tears with her arms like a child "Make sure of that okay? And I want you to blocked her on your phone. All of your connections with her starting today saka wag mo na syang kausapin"

"Yes I will. Now lets go down for breakfast. And make sure to bring down your meds with you. Ayoko ng mababalitaan na magcocollapse ka because of skipping those okay?".

"I got stressed because of you and I intentionally skipped meds to see if you still care for me". she rolled her eyes and headed to the bathroom.

For those meds ? Yes she had a rare disease mula pa ng nasa states kami,

Its for her heart cancer.

Bawal syang ma stressed at mag isip o masaktan dahil pwede syang ma stroke o hindi nalang basta makahinga.

Kaya naman hindi ganoong kadali para sakin ang mapanindigan si Alrish dahil humahanap pa talaga ako ng tyempo para magpaalam kay Roxy.

Her dad called me asking if there is something wrong going on between us. Kaya I rushed to thier house. And ended up sleeping in here.

But Al. Thinking about her now grabe na ang pag aalala ko. Now what will I do kung sakaling galit na galit sya? What am I going to tell her para kumalma sya? HIndi ko pwedeng sabihin sa kanya ang kondisyon ni Roxy dahil alam ko naman ang magiging desisyon nya at uunahin nya ang awa para dito. Sigurong aalisin nya ako sa buhay nya.