Still Into You (Ongoing)

CHAPTER 37

ALRISH

I knew I wasn't dreaming  when I woke up that morning in an unfamiliar room naked inside a blanket. I knew it was Sam, I knew we made love last night.

I can still feel her touch inside me. I remembered everything we did, I remembered she told me she love me. I fucking remembered hearing her say sorry to me but why the fuck?

Why the fuck when the sun rises im left behind again?

I grasped the blanket firmly while sobbing the pain out. Babalik na naman ako sa dati, aasa na naman ako kasi naramdaman kona naman sya. Maghihintay na naman ba ako na siputin nya ako? Kailangan ko pa ba ulit malasing at ilagay sa peligro ang sarili ko para maisipan nya akong puntahan?

Kung ayaw naman talaga nya sakin pwede naman nyang sabihin ng diretso, why is she torturing me hanging on  a hope that no one can predict if meron pa nga bang pag asa.

Sa gitna ng pag iyak ko ay sumagi sa isip ko na tawagan si Kuya Jas. Gusto kong malaman kung sya ang dahilan kung paano nalaman ni Sam na nag iinom ako sa bar nya kagabe.

After a few rings he answered."Yes alrish?".

i cleared my throath before answering"Kasi kuya, did you happen to tell Sam last night na nandyan ako sa bar mo?". there i asked it. HIndi ko alam pero parang nakaramdam ako ng kaba sa maari nyang isagot.

"HUh? You were? With who?" halata ang pagtataka sa kanya.

"So you never knew I was there last night?".

"No to be honest. I was with Cassey the whole night so I leave supervision to my manager on duty".sagot nya.

"Hmm okay kuya salamat.". then i ended the call and hurriedly put on my clothes then went straight to the shop. Malakas ang kutob ko, that it might be Mia who contacted Sam. I need the details, I need her explanation.

Ilang beses kong tinangkang tawagan at itext si Sam using her phone but it did not responded nor rang. Inakala kong nakablock din ang phone number ni Mia kay Sam, then why the heck did that happen that she might get in touch with the latter last night?

"A-alrish. B-bakit kapa pumasok. A-ano kasi,pinag paalam na kita kay maam Lindsay".nahalata komg mataranta si Mia ng makita akong pumasok sa shop.

"Cut the crap Mia. How did you contacted Sam? Tell me now or i swear i will treat you like no one in my life". seryoso at nanggagalaiti kong sabi dito. Alam kong hindi nya ako matatanggihan dahil ilang taon na kami magkasama sa shop and we have been in ups and downs as well but i never let her down, i did not. Never. 

"Alrish kasi. . .".

Tinignan ko sya ng masama dahil hesitant padin syang magsabi. 

Napabuntong hininga sya and atlast sinabi nya,"Eto. May spare phone sya. She is using this for the updates of your daily routine and whereabouts"at inabot nya sakin ang phone nya na may isang numero na ang nakapangalan ay Maam.

I dialed the number using her phone, two rang and someone answered. Sam answered. I felt tons of arrow dug deep in my heart when I heard her voice on the other line. I started to cry, damn I started to feel at ease and pained at the same time.

"What is wrong Mia? Did something happened to Alrish?". bakas sa tono nito ang pag aalala.

"W-what is wrong with you?Why? JUST WHY SAM? WHYYYY?"i screamed at the top of my lungs as I let out my anger. Feel me,have pity on me, need me because yes, I want you to run to me and explain yourself.

Just expalin why.

I will forget, i will accept. Ganyan ako katanga.

I heard sighs on the other line and after a second she ended the call. She knew it was me so she dropped it,she was avoiding me. She was giving me a hard time to pull myself together.