Kiss Me (yaoi / boyxboy)

Chapter 17

A/N ~ OMGOMGOMG, this is so freakin late... argh, I was just a bumbling mess of writer's block last week! 

Eli

I hear his sigh on the other end of the line, "What've you been neglecting to tell me, Eli?"

I don't know what to tell him. That I'm in love with a guy? For god's sake, I can't even admit it to myself.

"Nothing, he's a friend- my best friend."

"Why are you worried about him?"

"Jesus Christ dad, any sane person would be worried about their best friend if they found out that they were being watched by a man that tried to kill them. Do I need to remind you about the fact that you failed to kill him when you had the chance? Why am I worried? Oh, it must be because I'm fucking gay or something!"

I hear that sigh again as I calm down. I shouldn't have said that... hell, I don't even know why I did.

"Just... Just be careful. We'll look out for your friend." 

"Good." I snap, finger already hovering over the end call button.

"Talk to you later."

"Yeah."

The line goes dead and I'm left alone despite being so surrounded by people. I hear my own words in my ear again, 'I must be fucking gay or something' what the hell is wrong with me?

I close my eyes, squeezing the bridge of my nose between my thumb and first finger. I'm scared. There, I've said it. I'm being a dick because in scared. Scared for myself but scared of losing him and scared of getting too close.

"Who was that?"

I spin around. Standing behind me is Finn with a not exactly friendly look on his face. 

"Shit." I say, hand over my heart, "You scared me."

"Who was that?" He repeats.

"My dad."

Suddenly he shoves me hard against the wall, forearm pressed hard into my chest and scarily close to my neck, "The fuck are you playing at?"

I don't say anything- all I can do is stare at him in shock. He searches my eyes for an answer but when all he sees is confusion he carries on, "I swear, if you've put my brother in danger in any way, shape or form- I will fucking kill you."

"I'm not- I haven't- look, Finn-"

"No, you look. Stop fucking around. I know who your family are and I tried not to judge you because of them but when you get Grey involved in any of your shit then I just can't. Alright?"

I nod vigurously and the crushing pressure on my ribs weakens enough for me to not be scared for my life anymore. I glare at a few kids who have stopped, the excitment of a potential fight in their faces which quickly dissappears as quickly as they shuffle away.  

"Whatever you have with him..." His voice loses the anger, replaced by a sadness that I don't understand until his words finally come, "End it. Be cruel if you have to, but please Eli, don't put him in any more danger. " What? Even the idea of doing that makes my stomach flip and sends pain racking through my mind. 

"I... I don't think I can do that, Finn..." 

"Find a way." He growls, "For Grey's sake, do it. Before you go and get him hurt."

He turns on his heals and walks away, me staring after him. I can't believe this. I can't even imagine a life without Grey in it... But I have to, don't I? Because as much as I hate it, Finn's right and next time I see him, I'm going to have to make him hate me. Even if that means I have to hate myself aswell.