Kiss Me (yaoi / boyxboy)

Chapter 20

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I force myself to go. Pushing quickly through the window, I re-enter the corridor without anyone noticing me. I planned to just walk away but in the end, I don’t get very far, I just end up leant against the panelling on the wall to the right of the window.

I squeeze my eyes shut. They sting when I do but I’m not sure whether that’s the tears coming or because I could barely even breathe five seconds ago let alone blink.
I don’t know how I should feel. I just feel empty and incredibly tired. But there’s another emotion I can’t put a name to, sitting painfully heavy on my chest and making me want to just curl up into a ball and disappear.

I never thought that this would happen. I kept telling myself that he didn’t really likeme to prepare myself for this exact moment and yet… I never believed it would actually happen. Eli has a girlfriend. The words sting in my head. That’s why he’s been avoiding me. He wants me to get the message and leave him alone.

I jump and my eyes fly open when there’s a huge gust of wind and the window clatters shut. A minute later, there’s a voice just next to me, a girls voice coming from the other side of the thin glass,

“Shit. How’re we supposed to get back inside?”

Crap. My heart pounds against my chest as I look up and down the corridor. There’s no-one around except me to let them in. And it’s not like I can just leave them outside…  But then again, it is a nice day and it’s not ike no-one’s ever going to find them… But I can’t just leave either, the windows are floor length so I’d be caught if I tried to even crawl away. Thanks again, God, for finding so much enjoyment in making my life so fucking complicated.

“Can you see anyone?” I mentally curse at myself for flinching when I hear Eli’s slightly muffled voice. Tears spring up in my eyes and I dig my nails into the palms of my hands to keep them from spilling over. I am not going to cry. Not yet.

I search desperately for an escape route before seeing my saviour- a bush covering the bottom half of the window to my right. Quickly, I crouch down and use the bush to hide me as I walk as low as I can back they way I’d come. Every step, I’m expecting to hear Eli’s voice call my name but I don’t end eventually, I’m round the corner with my feet nearly breaking into a run as I near the school’s entrance.

But just as I’m about to leave, voices make me stop dead in my tracks. Two girls voices, coming from the other side of the door,

“…said she was going to confess to him.”

“Who?”

“Christ, don’t you ever listen? Melody’s confessing to Eli.”

“What? When?”

“Like ten minutes ago. In the walled garden…” The girl sighs, “Couldn’t have chosen a better place for it.” She scoffs, “Could’ve chosen a better guy though…”

“Huh? But they’re like perfect for each other.”

“Seriously? What planet are you living on Kate? The guy might be hot and all but perfect? Nuh-uh. He barely gives Melody the time of day.” Barely? How is sticking your tongue down someone’s throat considered barely? Ugh, I have no idea how Corey can spend his time listening to conversations like this.

I push the doors aside and walk awkwardly down the marble walkway, past the two girls leant in cheerleading outfits against the step’s railings. They both look at me as I pass, the dark haired girl with unfriendly eyes and the other red haired one with a happy, semi-vacant expression. As soon as I’ve passed them, one lets out a bored sounding sigh,