Confession: I am not as smart as my friends. And they are all graduating this year.
So I've just realized
I'm in junior college, which means I'm studying to get my associates degree. My major is biology, but I'm gonna have to change that because I won't graduate if I don't. Which reminds me.
I'm not graduating this year.
My parents may scream at me, and tell me I need to graduate by next year. But that's probably not going to happen either. I haven't been doing well in school. I'm not proud of it, but it's just the truth. I'm not going to graduate next year either. Maybe the year after. If I'm lucky.
But I digress from the real reason I decided to write this.
I am going to be alone by the end of this year.
My friends will not be around. They will have graduated and gone off to college by the time September rolls around. My boyfriend will be gone by December, he's going to go join the military.
I will be alone.
And that scares the fuck outta me.
I won't even have my siblings with me. I will have to learn to drive. My parents will depend on me for more things. I won't have much of my support system right there anymore. They will be gone.
Can I deal with that?
I'm really not sure. But I've come to terms with it a while ago.
If everything in this part of the year goes as planned, I will be alone.
I am not okay with that. But I will have to find a way to deal with that.
And that is just the way it is.
Deuces ✌🏾
Chey🐻
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Little Infinities
Nonfiksi"No one told me, That love was something to be afraid of. Now look at me; Afraid to get my heart broken After one encounter With the angel-disguised sin. " c.w A collection of poems, dreams, thoughts and short stories.
