Confession: I cannot trust this girl in my friend group.
So I have this acquaintance.
I don't call her my friend; she's untrustworthy in my eyes. And I'll come back to that.
She's someone who always needs to have the spotlight on her. If it's on anyone else, she throws a fit. If she doesn't get her way, she throws a fit. If anyone decides to plan something that doesn't involve her (especially if it's me and my boyfriend) she throws a fit.
She says that she has a problem with being left out of things. I don't understand it, so I won't say it's not real. So I'll just say this,
I think she's a hypocrite.
She says she has a HUGE problem with not being invited to things, even if it shouldn't include her. If my FAMILY has something at our house and she's not invited, we're "not her friends" for around 3 weeks, and then she comes back and gets mad because while she was gone for three weeks, the group made plans and did stuff without her.
But yet, when other people aren't around, she thinks it's a-okay to do things without them. She thinks it's okay to exclude people, when she herself doesn't want to be excluded.
For example, we were watching a show a few months back. We watched it together as a group. We wouldn't go ahead if it wasn't all of us at my house watching.
SO, we came to the end of the season. One of us had just left, and she decided that she wanted to go ahead and watch the season finale. I had the remote, and I said no, everyone's not here, why would you do that?
So she threw a damn fit, and got my sister to try and take the remote from me. I bit her. Then she made my friend hold me down and try to get the remote from me, I bit him. She figured out our devices can act as a remote for the tv, so I made those obsolete by unpairing them. Basically it was me against her and my sister.
And I don't blame my sister. She's brainwashed. She loooooves her lying and deceptive friend. She doesn't care what happens to me if it involves her friends. I mind, but I've learnt not to complain.
But do you see what I meant by she's exclusive? No? Another example.
My best friend just broke up with his girlfriend. They're both in our friend group, and I love both of them. He decided to take a little time away from our friend group, to grab his bearings. And eventually he decided that he still wanted to be our friend, but it hurt too much to see his ex everyday. To everyone else, he is still part of our friend group.
To her, not so much.
She decided we would all get hats, since a lot of us are graduating and going abroad to study. I asked if we were going to get him one. She said no, he's not part of the friend group.
Again, it was me against her. Because it seems like everyone else is afraid of her.
Do you still not see how exclusive she is? How hypocritical she is? If you don't, I didn't give enough examples, or maybe you just need to see it in the flesh to understand what I'm talking about.
But anyway, back to the untrustworthy thing.
We, as a group of friends, are expected to be completely open with each other. No secrets, and completely no gossip about each other outside the group.
Yet,
Whatever we tell her gets out into the world.
My sister was dating a girl. Something completely new for her, even though she's identified as Bi for a while. She asked us all to keep it to ourselves, because where we live, you can be killed for something like that. My parents would put her out of the house had they found out. So we all stayed quiet.
Except for her
She was the last person to know, and she was so hurt by that, that she told a friend outside our group. And that friend told another, and another and another until it was all over our school, spreading like wildfire.
And my sister cried.
And I comforted her, because to this day she still hasn't said sorry for that. My sister's relationship is broken up now. She is no longer proud to say she is Bi.
And yet, we keep making excuses for this fucking untrustworthy person.
And it seems like no one recognizes all of this but me.
This is more of a rant, than a diary entry.
God she just pisses me off so much.
Deuces✌🏾,
Chey
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Little Infinities
Não Ficção"No one told me, That love was something to be afraid of. Now look at me; Afraid to get my heart broken After one encounter With the angel-disguised sin. " c.w A collection of poems, dreams, thoughts and short stories.
