Self Harm Assesment

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I.... Fuck.... I just broke 8 months of being clean..... I thought I was done with this shit already...

I'm so pathetic. Ugh. Just....... I don't know what to do with myself anymore...... Does anybody else have the feeling of really wanting to stop and tell someone but having the inner battle with yourself realizing  that they are just going to make a big deal about it.

Damn it. Can't I just have one friend. just one. I have a great best friend VV. I would telll her.... I really really need to... but I just can't burden her with it. nobody should have to watch me like a child with sissors....

Ugh. Why am I conplaining. I did this. Nobody else.......