I don't know what I'm talking about

Day 1

Today was the first day I went all day without talking to him
Barely.
We're best friends, you know? We always talk. Somehow I just realized it's because I text him first. we haven't talked all day

Send each other one or two pictures but that's it no real conversation
And it sucks. I like him. I like talking to him. He makes me happy and
But I can't you know I can't do it anymore
I can't get hurt again
I won't get hurt again
And I'm going to start dating girls more, give up on boys for a bit
Because they're fucking stupid
I love all of you but seriously how can you bE that oblivious
And girls have boobs which are fun.
And I have to give up on him
I have to not text him
He doesn't care enough to text first and that makes me realize I like talking to him a lot more than he likes talking to me you know because I know it's not a big deal and it isn't until you realize he never texts first
And that's why I have to stop
But it goes beyon d that
It goes to not being able to handle it
You know