Growing Up Together(EDITING*)

Chapter 5; Settling Things

[T O N Y]

"We be all night, loveeeeee." I could hear Carmen's voice drift through out the house. The smell of bacon, pancakes, and eggs lingered throughout the house as well and so did the sound of Stephon's little baby talking shit. Half the time it was just him crying, he was a fussy ass little nigga.

When I walked into the room, Stephon instantly lit up and smiled at me on his little spot on the couch. He had on a true religion onesie and his eyes looked at me with innocence. I instantly started to feel like a terrible father.

What the fuck was I doing man..fucking around with some bitch when I have a beautiful wife and son sitting at home, waiting on me to come back every night. A fine ass woman that cooks even though she shouldn't be moving just yet, who loves me for me, who supports me. A beautiful ass child, who was my life, and the one that I helped to create.

Why was I wasting all of that over some bitch who I didn't even have feelings for ? Everytime I get someone thing good, I never can keep it. I always manage to fuck it up man, every damn time. Why couldn't I do shit right ?

Shaking my head out of my thoughts, I walked into the kitchen and saw a master piece of a damn image. Carmen had her back to me, and her leggings really made her ass poke, got damn. Her auburn locks were pulled into a high ponytail, and her shirt raised a lil so I could see the small of her back.

I licked my lips as I looked at the visible tattoo on the back of her arm and on the small of her back. She switched off of her left leg and stood on her right, making her ass cheek move as well. Damn, I knew I had a bad ass bitch.

Without thinking, I walked up behind her and encircled one arm around her waist and the other I helped her stir the pancake mix. I knew she was blushing by the way the the tips of her fingers turned red. "Look who's cooking..with ya fine ass."

I leaned her shirt off of one of her shoulders and pressed my lips to her skin, making her lean back into my chest and stop doing what she was doing. "T-Tony.." I went higher and kissed up the side of her neck, pulling her body up against myself.

After she had Stephon, she lost all her weight fast as fuck. She was still tired often, but that didn't stop her stubborn ass from moving around. "Yes baby.." I bit the top of her ear and swirled my tongue around her piercing, making her moan. Smirking, I stepped away from her and turned her around.

I expected something completely different, but what I saw made me regret all the wrong I been doing. Carmen's eyes were red, her cheeks were puffy and her lips were swollen.

I knew she wouldn't forget, but I didn't think she'd remember so damn fast. "Baby stop dawg, please don't start that crying shit." I picked up Carmen and through her over my shoulder, walking into the living room where Stephon was. He was fast asleep, his pacifier hanging out of his mouth.

I placed Carmen down and picked up Stephon, taking him to his room and putting him in his crib. I'm guessing that Carmen fed the little nigga, so he should be out for a good 2 hours. Walking back into the living room, I took a big breath and sighed, coming face to face with a blank looking Carmen.

"Why Anthony.." I gave her a confused look and opened my mouth to speak when she looked at me. "Why wh-" "Is she more attractive than me..thicker ? Brown skinned ? I've heard how you don't like light skins..Was she a better choice ? Was she better in bed ? Or is it just me ? Am I ugly or something ? Do I not appeal to you any longer ? Is it ca-"

I cut Carmen off and pulled her into my chest. "Baby stop man, you're fucking beautiful. She's not more attractive, you're light skin and I love it, she isn't better in bed man, it's not you. It was never you.." She sucked in an air of breath and weakly tried to push me away from her.

"So you did fuck her man, you had sex with h-her.." I sighed and bit on my lip as I felt my heart start to break into two. Damn this was always the worst part. Seeing her cry made me feel like a monster. She busted out into tears and held her face in her hands, shrinking down to the floor.

"Carmen..Carmen I did-" I reached out to touch her but she just slapped my hand away. "Don't fucking touch me ! You'd rather be with that other bitch. Go fucking be with her since I wasn't good enough for you Anthony !"

Damn I fucked up man. I don't even know what to do to fix it this time. "Baby just please hear me out man. I didn't mean to have sex with her I-" "I don't wanna hear that bullshit ! You don't fucking love me man, you did that shit just like how you did with Taylor ! YOU NEVER LOVED ME ANTHONY."

She wasn't even crying anymore, she was in my face, hitting me in chest and telling me how I didn't love her. She started screaming, telling me how she hated me, how she wish I would just disappear.

"Carmen.." I grabbed the both of her wrist and looked her straight into her eyes. I always have that effect when I look into a girls eyes..they always submit. She stopped screaming at me and looked back at me. Her doe brown eyes looked hurt, and I cursed to myself as I pressed my lips to hers.

Her lips tasted like salt, salt and syrup. I leaned us back until I was on top of her and pinned her wrist above her head. "Carmen I love you." I kissed down her neck and swirled my tongue over her skin, sucking on the skin and grazing it with my teeth. "Don't tell me you love me you don't mean it.." She half said and half moaned her sentence, turning me on and making me go further.

I guess a little make up sex was in session..Carmen wrapped her legs around my waist as I let go of her wrists, dragging my hand up her shirt to play with her chest. Her body always felt so damn nice, even after our first time, it's always felt the same.

She was always tight, always warm and soft, always so..alluring. I lost myself inside of her everytime we made love. Just as I was taking her shirt off, I heard a loud ass set of sobs coming from Stephon's room. Damn, I loved the little nigga but he was always fucking up my time with Carmen.

He cried louder and louder and I just kept kissing on Carmen, leaning her up to undo her bra strap. "Anthony stop, you know I gotta get The b-.. Mmmm, Tony !" I slid my tongue over her nipple and played with the other one. "Ignore him, I'm not stopping."

Carmen moaned again and ran her finger nails down my back. I swear she was drawing blood. "Carmen I love you." I looked directly into her eyes as I slid my hand down her stomach, playing with the waistband of her sweats. She bit on her lip and made her love faces.

As I was slipping my hand past that point and getting closer to her wet wet, some dumb ass idiot started knocking at the door. I groaned and got off of Carmen, helping her strap her bra and get her shirt back ok. Every damn time, somebody gotta fuck up some shit.

Carmen ditzly walked to the door and looked through the peephole.

I walked to the door as well and protectively wrapped my arm around Carmen's waist.

Who the fuck could be knocking at my damn door ?

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Clifaaaaaay ?

Gave y'all a little something something.

Who's at the door ?

Will Carmen forgive Tony ?

Stay tuned and find out next update !

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