Growing Up Together(EDITING*)

Chapter 4

[T O N Y]

I woke up with a banging ass headache. I swear, my head was doing numbers. "What the fuck happened to me ?" I voiced aloud and gritted when even my voice hurt my ears. Damn, I must've really been fucked up.

I opened my eyes slowly and looked around he room, noticing I was at home..shit ! I shot up quick as fuck, but held my head once it started pounding. "Damn.." I sighed and walked around to the kitchen, feeling up a glass with some water from the tap and grabbing some Motrins.

Memories of last night started to come back to me in bits and pieces. The water felt good once is started going down my throat, which was dry. Without even thinking, I threw up in the kitchen sink. My throat started to burn at the taste and I sighed, cursing to myself.

When have I ever been known to not control my liquor ? Damn man, damn. I don't even remember coming in the house last night dawg. "I see that you're up." Carmen was standing in front of me, dressed in some black sweats and a tight ass white shirt.

Her auburn hair was pulled into a high ponytail and her arms were crossed against her chest. A nigga already knew he was in trouble, might as well just come clean. "Carmen I-" She put her hand up and shook her head, flashing me a tiny smile.

See that's when you know ya girl mad, you did some shit but she smiling ? That mean you got a crazy one. "It's okay Anthony, I understand. Me and Stephon leaving, to go back to Michigan." "Woo, for a minute I th- wait, what the fuck you mean yall leaving ?

Carmen then lost her fucking mind, she ain't going no where and neither is my got damn son. "You ain't leaving this damn house, shut that shit up." I really ain't have the time to argue, I had a banging ass headache and I was tired. I felt dirty and I just needed to shower and sleep for a whole week.

"Oh I'm not ? Explain to me who Sherry is then Anthony. Explain to fucking me !" Carmen started yelling, and looked me dead in my eyes, causing me to sigh and turn my head away from hers.

"That's who the fuck you been going to see huh ? That's who the fuck been calling your phone, and that's who name you was saying in yo damn sleep. And after all the crazy shit we then been through..I can't believe that you would do this to me man...I was faithful to you, spent all my time on you. I even had your damn son Anthony ! I don't understand..Am I not good enough ?"

She started crying then..her make up started to run down her cheeks. I don't understand myself to be real. I'm always hurting Carmen...I hurt her with Taylor..now it's Sherry. And I don't even care about Sherry. She just some bitch that I hooked up with for sex.

I slowly strode over to Carmen and gave her a look of guilt. "Look Carmen..I know I made a mistake..can I just take a shower first I smell l-" "Cheap perfume and sex..I know." She giggled a little through her tears and I smiled a little bit more confidently.

That was the thing about Carmen. No matter what, she could never stay upset for long. She always gave me a chance to explain..she was always here. She was just always listening.."I..I.." I shook my head and kissed Carmen's forehead, walking to the bathroom.

I could tell this conversation was going to be long. I didn't want to be the one to tell her this shit, but ma ain't raise no pussy. I'm gone tell her the truth and nothing but.

God please forgive me...

Give me the strength...