Choosing You

Chapter 34 - Everything Changed

Draft - Abr 12, 2017

Chapter 34

Trina

"Hindi ko talaga gets yung ginagawa mo. " sabi ko sa babaeng busy-busyhan sa laptop niya. Hindi ko alam ko nga alam kung busy ba talaga siya sa ginagawa niya o gusto niya lang mag mukhang busy dahil alam niya kung bakit ako andito.

"Hindi ko din alam kung anong ibig mong sabihin." She said ng hindi tumitingin sa akin.

"Wag nga ako Oli! Don't me! Alam kong alam mo ang ibig kong sabihin." Saka na upo sa harap niya habang masayang nginunguya ang burger ko. Na stress na ako dito kay Oli at mukhang kelangan ko pa ng isa pang burger.

"I heard enough from Sab. So please lang Trina wag mo ng dagdagan pa at kumain ka na lang." Rinig kong sabi nito habang ang tingin nito ay hindi man lang umaalis sa screen ng laptop niya.

"Well, atleast be resfectful enough to look at the person you are talking to."

Kita ko ang pag buntong hininga nito at tumingin sa akin.

"Satisfied?"

"Not yet." Sabi ko dito "Unless sasabihin mo sa akin ano tong pinag gagawa mo?"

"I don't think I still have tell you. For sure sinabi na sayo lahat ni Sab. That's why you are here di ba?"

"You know I always respect and understand your decision. But atleast enlighten me why you are pushing her away. We both know that you love her Oli. Sana wag mong hayaan na manaig yung galit mo. Do no let it destroy your future and your happiness." Alam kong naiintindihan niya ang sinasabi ko pero hindi ko talaga maintindihan why she's pushing EJ away.

"Hindi ko magawang tignan siya ng hindi nasasaktan." I see the truth behind her words "Yes, I love her pero mas matimbang yung sakit na nararamdaman ko kesa sa mahal ko siya."

"But she's not the one who inflicted that pain. It is the circumstance Oli. So do not mix it up."

"I can't help it!" ramdam ko na pinipilit niyang controlin lahat ng nararamdaman niya. But her eyes can't lie. Kita ko ang kakaibang lungkot at sakit sa mga mata nito. "I hate dad for leaving and hurting mom. But I hate myself even more because I am turning to be like him." Saka iniwas ang tingin sa akin.

"Edi wag." I want to save her from the pain that she has right now. But everything lie on her decision. Would she make the right choice or will she be stuborn to make a choice that she think its right ? "Everybody has a choice Oli but please do not choose the eaisiest way out by pushing her away and breaking her heart. Dahil hindi lang siya ang masasaktan mo kung hindi pati ang sarili mo knowing that you love her."

" This is the best and only choice I have Trina." She said and look at me "I do not have any other choice but to break our heart." Saka inalis ang tingin sa akin as she tries to shut all her emotions.

Wala akong nagawa kung hindi mapa hinga na lang ng malalim sabay kagat sa burger na hawak ko

I think I really need a box of pizza and frappe after dahil sa nakaka stress na usapan naming to ni Oli. Wala na akong magagawa kung hindi ikain na lang ito.

Hindi ko alam kung gaano ako katagal na andito sa loob ng office ni Oli. I guess alam niyang na stress ako sa pinag usapan namin kaya bigla itong nag order ng 2 pizza at 1.5 litter ng softdrinks.

"You should stop worrying about me Trina." I heard Oli said kaya napa angat ako ng tingin sa kanyang direksyon mula sa librong binabasa ko.

Kita kong pilit itong ngumiti pero kita sa mga mata nito ang sakit.

"Trust me Trina. I can manage this."sabi nito saka tumayo "But I can't manage to be hungry kaya tara na. Let's eat outside." Kahit na alam kong she just trying to cover up everything by being jolly ay sinakyan ko na lang. If this makes herfeel a little bit better so be it.

Pa labas na kami when we hear a familiar voice. We do not intend to listen but it's Sab voice.

"Do you think I will let you fool me again? No! So please lang Yanna tigilan mo na ako."

"Please Sab listen to me.Just give me another chance to explain."

"Explain what? Na gusto mo lang gumanti. Tama na Yanna, alam ko na kaya hindi mo na kailangang ulit ulitin pa. And another chance? Gusto mo ng another chance? I gave you a chance! I gave us a chance but you blew it away."

"Sab, please wag naman ganito. You know how much you mean to me."

"I thought I do. Pero hindi pala."

Napatingin ako kay Oli. She is just simply listening to the conversation.

"Dapat ba tayong makinig?" I ask Oli.

"She keeps telling me that I am making thebiggest mistake for letting EJ go. Pero eto siya, shutting Yanna off without letting herexplain because of her pride." Sabi ni Oli saka nag simulang mag lakad palayo

"Nasaktan lang siya Oli." Sabi ko dito "Hindi niya alam kung pwede niya pa ulit ipag katiwala ang puso niya."

"I know and I fully understand her decision." Saka huminto ito at humarap sa akin "Ang sa akin lang, people make a choice depending on what is right and what we think is right." I see her smile pero kita that in her eyes she already made a decision. "At the end of the day, what mattermost is to stand on the choicewe made."

I want to say something pero hindi ko ginawa. I keep all the thoughts inside me hoping that Oli would realize things on her own but she didn't.

She stick on what she thinks is right.

She let her go. She broke her own heart.

I wish I said something. I wish I did something .Pero ang lahat ay isa na lang hiling.

Dahil hindi ko na mababago pa kung ano man ang ngyari.

Everything is in the past now at hindi na iyon mababago pa.

Everything has changed.

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