Fangirl // A Tanner Fox fanfiction

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"EXCUSE ME. This is an emergency!!" A couple of nurses run pass us..... into the room where Drew is.

My body starts to tremble as I anxiously think of all the bad things that could happen to Drew.

10 minutes*

"WHAT HAPPENED?" Rachel and Josh came rushing in, taking deep breaths.

"I was going to order some doughnuts." Josh says, silently.

"REALLY JOSH? ALL YOU CARE NOW IS YOUR DOUGHNUTS?"

I keep on biting my fingernails as Tanner tries to calm me down by rubbing my back.

* 4 hours later *

What's taking them so long??? Is he actually going to be okay? I've been walking around the hallway for four hours and still nothing.

Suddenly, I feel everything in the world stop for a few seconds. Everything is quiet. Too quiet. The doctor came out of the room with his head down.

"Is he--" before I can finish my sentence he cuts me off.

"I'm sorry. Really. We've tried everything to help save him. I'm really sorry" the doctor puts his hands on my shoulders.

I freeze. I have no idea how to feel or to talk anymore.

"June 5th, 11:28p.m"

I break down in front of everyone. He's such a nice guy why would he leave so early? There's so many things for him to achieve and experience in his life! He can't just leave now.

"I'm sorry Al" Tanner embraces me tightly as I cry into his shoulders.

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"May his soul rests in peace"

It's the next day, the day after the doctors told us that Drew left this world.

His coffin is lowered into the ground.

We throw a few handful of dirt onto his coffin. When everyone is gone, I'm left there standing, staring at his tombstone. "Andrew Joseph Gall. Passed but still remained a badass." He told us he wanted that written on his tombstone one night when we were all hanging out. I missed those days with him.

"Hi, excuse me, you must be Alaska"

I turn my head to a middle aged woman standing beside me, it must be his mother.

"Um yea Hi, yes, I'm Alaska" I try to smile even though my eyes are all watery.

Why is this so hard?!?

"I'm Drew's mother, Anne. I need to clean out Drew's room and I was wondering whether you and all of your friends would like to help out. Maybe find something interesting while you're at it"

I couldn't speak so I just give a polite nod.

**~***~~**

"Hey guys check this out" Josh suddenly says while he's cleaning up the books on Drew's shelves. It's two days after his funeral and everyone is here in his bedroom - Rachel, Josh and me. Tanner's got other things to do so he's not here with us.

Josh pulls out a picture of the four of us when we were freshmen in high school. The four of us got colored powder all over our faces because we ran a color run.

"I missed this" I say touching the edges of the picture.

I continue packing up his clothes that were going to go to charity and as I clear out his clothes from his closet, something hard fell onto the floor. A journal. I pick it up and instead of telling the others about it, I keep it inside my bag to look at it later when I get home. Drew's mother said we can take whatever we want so this doesn't count as stealing.

After we helped clean Drew's stuff I got back home eager to read the journal.

The first thing I see when I entered my bedroom is a sleeping Tanner with his laptop on the bed. I got his laptop off of my bed, put my bag down and start to read the journal, cuddled beside my bedroom window.

The first few pages are just his drawings and scribbles. I don't know what made me flip to the very back of the journal. It was an entry, written just days ago.

Dear Journal, this may be the last time you're going to hear from me but I feel like I this is the most important thing i have to tell you before I go....