When I Laid My Eyes On You

Chapter 21

I'll prove something, Dad. I'll prove you na mali yung mga taong niloko mo. Maling mali.

"What the fuck, Azalea?! Where did you get that sharp object?" Pag pigil sakin ni Lance.

Ngayon ko lang naramdaman yung hapdi, shit. I looked at my wrist and it's covered with blood. I can see some deep cuts and I didn't know why I did this. God, nadadala ako sa galit ko.

Bigla niyang tinakpan yung wrist ko with his handkerchief.

"Damn it, Azalea. Don't kill yourself." Bigla niya kong niyakap.

I only patted his back and what surprised me is when he carried me bridal style.

"Uh, Lance, my legs are completely fine." Nanghihina kong sabi.

Worry is evident in his eyes. Bigla siyang nataranta.

"Why?" Hina kong sabi.

"Goddamn it, Azalea. You're pale! Hang on tight, PLEASE!" Tumakbo na siya.

I heard some voices and I couldn't see them clearly. My vision is getting blurry.

"L-Lance." That's the last thing I said before my vision went black.

I felt someone is brushing my hair.

I slowly opened my eyes and saw that it's my Mom.

"Mama." I said with a low tone.

"Zea, why are you doing this? Huh? Bakit mo ginawa sa sarili mo 'to? Huh? Please don't leave your mama. Do you want me to be alone?" She asked while smiling.

I shook my head.

"Good girl, last na yan ha? No more cuts." She kissed my forehead.

Biglang pumasok sila Eros and he immediately went to me.

Mom gave space for Eros.

"Ania, why?!" Naiiyak niyang tanong.

I just looked at him, with expressionless eyes.

"Ania naman." He hugged me.

Mom was staring at the both of us, and she's smiling. Don't mom, I have trust issues already, even innocent guys can cheat.

"Ania, why did you do this." He cried.

I patted his back and didn't say anything.

I would like to hug you back but I can't trust you. I'm sorry. I blocked myself from trusting people.

He looked at me, his tears are very evident.

I was about to wipe it, when I realized that I shouldn't care at all. Bitchy act. I know.

But, realization strikes, why would I push away people that did not do anything wrong?! Sorry. Oh my God, I'm sorry.

I wiped Eros tears, and he hugged me again.

"Please don't do it again, you scared me to death." He said.

He backed away and he kissed my forehead.

"Don't attempt to kill yourself." He said in a cold tone and walked out of the room.

I looked at my wrist, it's now covered in bandage, wooh, great.

I didn't mean to actually hurt myself. I often do some unusual things when my mind is filled with anger.

The next morning, I got discharged from the hospital, finally! I want to lay in bed.

"Anak, please take some rest. I'll go to the office, I need to discuss some thing to the board." Mom smiled at me.

"What about him?" I said with anger evident within my tone.

"Masakit, kapag nakikita ko siya. But, I need to show him that I'm strong, right?" She laughed.

I smiled and kissed her, "Be home before dinner."

She nodded and went outside of my room.

I changed my clothes into some comfy pajamas.

I turned on the air condition and lay down to my comfy bed.

When I closed my eyes, I still see what happened last night, how I caught them, how I actually talked back to my papa, like that. How I become disrespectful to the 'loving' bestfriend of mom. Damn it, what's happening, and it became like this.

I didn't notice that I already fell asleep. But some strange noises was keeping me from sleeping, again.

I immediately sat down. They shut up.

I looked at the people surrounding my bed.

"Do I look like a dead person that you surrounded my bed like that?" I said with a pissed tone.

They smiled awkwardly.

"Since when did you arrive here?" Inis kong tanong.

"An hour ago." Nyla smiled, nervously.

I roamed around my room. Huh. Damn these visitors.

"So you were here to have a good meryenda, to watch movies at my television and be noisy when someone's sleeping?!" Sigaw ko.

Napapikit sila sa sigaw ko.

"We just wanted to see, if you're okay." Ryan frowned.

"You look ugly, don't do that." I rolled my eyes.

"What?! I thought that'd work for girls. It worked to girls at our school." Natawa siya.

"Do you think I'm one of those leeches? No. I don't find you attractive, idiot."

"Ouch!" He acted like someone stabbed his heart.

"Sorry, ganyan iyan kapag wala sa mood. She says such awful things." Paliwanag ni Nyla.

Buti alam mo.

Humiga ulit ako at pinabayaan sila magkwentuhan dun.

I fell asleep, once again. Sobrang pagod ko ata.

Pag gising ko andun parin sila, but damn it, parang mga bakla kung makasigaw.

I silently stood up and my hair is quite messy. Andun ako sa likod nila and they were watching Conjuring. Psh.

"Psst." Tawag ko.

Dahan dahan silang tumingin sa likod nila na kung san ako, good timing na madilim yung kwarto ko.

I smiled and they screamed. Parang mga ewan.

I opened the light and they stopped screaming and hugging each other.

Hinahanap ko yung isang lalake na andito kanina.

Asan na si Lance?

Pag talikod ko andun pala si Lance, damn sobrang lapit ng mukha namin.

"Are you looking for me?" He smirked.

Damn this guy, Hangin!