A Daughter To Love.. (Amanda Mealing/Casualty Fanfiction)

Confiding In Mum...

(Mia's P.O.V)

I went upstairs with my phone... "mummy! Mummy! I'd like a cuddle.' I picked Isaac up and opened my bedroom door. I just unlocked my phone and just sat there and thought for a minute. What does he really need to talk about? It can't be.... no. It can't... he can't still have feelings for me. He knows I'm with Adam. I get that he probably has a love for me as the mother of his child... but for us. No. I couldn't go there... I texted him back and put my phone in my bedside draw. I cuddled Isaac and heard him babble on. I couldn't lie to Adam.. I couldn't tell him I loved him when Seth clearly has feelings for me. I took out a sharp pin I had... Mum, Dad, Otis and Milo didn't know I kept a sharp object in my draw. I had to do this... I took the pin and slashed my hand... blood was seeping through the rough, hurt cut. I winced.... I didn't feel any better. It just didn't stop. "Mummy? You OK?" I looked at Isaac and cried... "Mummy is fine." I wiped my tears away. I put Isaac on the floor.. I could see him playing with his trucks... "look mummy.. red, blue, lellow, and green." I felt weak inside. Really breaking down. Really hurt and feeling awful for months on end. I packed my stuff and zipped my bag up. "Little man. Do you wanna go somewhere?" He nodded. 'Is Dam Dam coming?" I shook my head. I heard the door open... no. No. No... "Hi darling. We're back. Mia?" I heard Mum shout... Now what do I do? I heard her come upstairs... I put my bag away and picked Isaac up.."Hi mum. How was your afternoon?" She smiled at me.."It was lovely darling. Are you OK? You look like you've been crying. I smiled. "My eyes were watering. Hay fever." She hugged me and tickled Isaac. "How's the baby in your stomach nanna?" She giggled. "The baby is good thank you." Mum took him from me and cuddled him. I tried not to cry again... she could see pain in my face. 'What's up sweetie? You seem upset.' I shook my head. 'I'm fine.' She sat down next to me and stroked my hair softly. 'I can't help you if you don't tell me what's wrong.' I felt a tear come through. 'Do you know what I did today? I cut myself. I cut myself mum. That's why blood is seeping through my shirt.... I used a sharp object and harmed my own skin. I've also packed a bag too... I'm leaving with Issac right now.' Mum looked at me disbelievingly... 'Awwww sweetheart. Look at me. Listen.... What happened today?' I got up and took my bag and zipped it up. Mum got up and kept soothing Issac. 'Mummy! Mummy!' I came over and mum looked at me.. 'Darling... what happened?' I took Issac from her and just continued to pack. 'Like I said... mum. NOTHING.' Mum looked at me... 'Something happened for you to be acting like this sweetheart. Tell me.' I laughed sarcastically and shook my head. 'Do you know when you think you're in a perfect relationship and everything is fine... but then your worst nightmare comes true and everything crushes like a dagger inside you? Yeah! THAT'S WHAT HAPPENED TO ME TODAY! SETH TEXTED ME ASKING ME TO TALK TO HIM!' I took my phone and shoved it in her face.... 'Sweetheart.. listen to me alright? Look at me. I know you're confused about everything..... I know you are.' She took my arms and I took her hand off my arm. 'LIKE I SAID MUM...... I'M GOING. DON'T TRY AND STOP ME.' I took my bag and mum stood near my door. 'MUM! MOVE OUT OF MY WAY NOW... OTHERWISE, I'LL CUT AGAIN! I'LL DO IT!' I took a sharp pin from my draw and put it on the beside table... 'Sweetheart.' I could see the pain, helpless... sorrow look in her eyes.... 'Mum. MOVE.'

She didn't budge. I got the pin and striked it across my hand... making it bleed. 'MIA!' Mum took my arms and stroked my hair softly. 'Talk to me baby.. please.' I just cried my heart out... mum holding me tight.. 'GET OFF ME!' I started screaming for help... Mum's grip was tight on my arms. 'Let go of me!' I heard a knock on my door. 'Darling. It's me. Dad. Let me in.' I had to get mum's hands off me.. Issac was crying so loudly.. I wanted the noise to just stop. 'Seth texted you right?' I nodded. My back turned to her... 'Darling. What happened?' Mum let dad in and looked around my room... seeing the mess and I saw her suitcase packed with her stuff... I turned and looked at Amanda... her arms were wrapped around Mia. I could hear Mia breathing... like slowly... 'I can't do this anymore mum... I cut myself.. Dad.... I need my baby and I need to leave...' Amanda was holding onto Mia, swaying her from side to side. 'Everything's alright sweetheart. Everything is going to be alright.' I heard my phone ring and dad picked it up. 'Hi Adam. It's Richard.' I laid there... with my tear-stained face... 'Shhhh... Shhh.... It's ok.' I looked at mum. 'My cut hurts.' I looked at Richard and he went to get the first aid kit. 'ooo... your sibling is kicking mummy today.' She looked at me and smiled. 'He just texted me and I went insane. This anger raged inside me like a bubbling volcano.' I suddenly felt the urge to pack a bag and run.' She held onto me and dad came back in with the first aid kit and started patching up my cut. 'Are you alright babe?' I nodded. 'Yes. our little child keeps kicking me.' Dad laughed. 'Well, we've got our next scan next Tuesday. Oh, and by the way, your boyfriend rang.' I looked up. 'You didn't tell him did you?' Richard looked at me. 'No. I said it wasn't a good time. He said he was worried that he'd not heard from you.' I hugged Mia tightly. 'How about we go downstairs and have a good chat hey?' Dad kissed the top of my forehead and smiled at me. 'All patched up for you sweetheart.'

(Mia's P.O.V)

I checked on Issac before I went downstairs. It was 9.00pm. I put on a pyjama top and some leggings and I heard the door.. 'Sis. Hey.' I went downstairs. 'Hey guys. I missed you. Before you ask, i'm fine. I'll be up in a minute. I need to tell you guys something about mum.' They looked at me. 'Ok.....' Milo laughed. I went into the living room and sat down. I felt a bit better. Mum must of brought my phone downstairs as it was flashing..

5 missed calls from Adam x

1 new message:

hey beautiful,

I was worried i'd not heard from you. How are you? I've missed you and Issac a lot. My counselling training session went well. Very informative. Text or ring me when you're ready. xxxx

Bless him. He was so understanding, sweet, and lovely. 'Here we go. A hot chocolate.' Mum walked in, sitting down and looking so comfy in her fluffy slipper boots. 'So... What's really going on?' I sighed. 'I honestly have no clue. Seth texted me asking me to go and meet him to talk. What do we have to talk about? We only have Issac between us and before you ask, no. I really don't want him... not like that. I'm past it mum. I'm exhausted. Adam texted me earlier asking how I was. He's really handsome, sweet, caring and he really, really likes me. It's like when we went for the weekend in Newcastle, we like spent time together and we had our first night together. He's such a gentleman mum.' She looked at me. 'I like him. I honestly do. I think Otis, Milo, and Issac love him.' I blushed. 'I recommend you tell him about your health though. He'll be there for you.' I placed my hand on mum's stomach. 'Wow. This little baby is kicking too much!' Mum giggled whilst sipping her hot chocolate. 'He or she is.' I laughed quietly. 'What would you like the gender to be?' I saw her make a thinking face... 'A girl! We have enough boys ruling this house!' I nodded. 'I agree. Thankyou for listening.' Mum put her hand on my shoulder. 'It's ok sweetheart. I just want to make sure you're ok.' She yawned. 'I'm tired.' I yawned too.. 'Let's go up.' We made our way upstairs and Milo and Otis said night to mum and they looked at me.

'So?... What's up with mum? I looked at them. 'Mum is pregnant guys.' They looked at me... shocked. 'They went there again? Let's hope it's a boy!' I laughed.. 'Ha Ha. Night idiots.' I got into bed and turned my bedside light off. I was going to seek help and talk to Adam. Issac needed me.