A Daughter To Love.. (Amanda Mealing/Casualty Fanfiction)

Things Changing....

(Mia's P.O.V)

I wonder how our little sister was doing.... I can't wait for her to come home. 'Mummy... me want daddy.' I'd not seen Seth in a while. As much as I hated his guts, Issac was his dad. I'd  not heard from Adam and I was kinda angry.. not even a text....

Flashback (2 days ago...)

'Adam? Babe? Your phone is ringing.' No answer. We was just sat in the park. Issac giggled. 'Lellow truck mummy. Red... beep beep....' He left his phone on the bench near where I was sitting. I looked around.. checking to see his view was in sight... He left his phone unlocked. This feeling of dread filled up inside my lungs.... I tried to keep breathing at a steady pace.... I'd seen a text from another girl...... I felt like my stomach was in knots... I felt physically sick. The message was from a girl called Ella... I looked at the message... the words replaying in my mind..

You're so good looking... i'm surprised I've not got you. xxxx 

How could he? My thought bubble was burst when he came walking towards me... I slipped his phone in my pocket. 'Are you alright darling?' I plastered on a smile... 'yeah. i'm fine. I'm actually not feeling a coffee now.' I stood up and my hands gripped on to Issac's pushchair. 'I'll text you later.' Adam stood up and kissed me. His lips crushing my entire body into smithereens...  I was just letting the tears fall as I was walking home... 'Hey. You're so good looking.. i'm surprised i've not got you..' LIKE WHO DOES THAT? I couldn't even fathom to think or visualise what he's been doing with this Ella... the tears kept streaming down my face.. Quick and Fast... I let myself in and I heard Grandma. 'Hey sweetie.' I wiped a stray tear away. 'Oh sweetheart.... what's happened?' I just cried and her arms wrapped around me like a blanket. 'You can tell me you know.' I looked at her.... feeling hurt, betrayed, sad, angry, used.... 'I'm fine. Issac baby?' He looked at Grandma. 'Nanna.. why mummy crying?' I looked away. 'Let's go upstairs and put you down for a nap hey?' I took Issac upstairs and I took his coat and trainers off.. 'Where Dam Dam mummy?' I felt myself crying again.... 'I don't know baby.' I placed him on my bed and kissed his forehead. I left his door slightly open and took my coat off. I then went into the bathroom and shut the door. I cried so much..... even him touching me in the park felt odd. Like what was going through his twisted, sick, little mind? HE KNEW I had issues with trust...  'I'll never hurt you.'

He said those words on our first date. He knew i'd been through hell and back. I'd told him everything... about Seth... about Issac.... about opening up to someone and all this time, i'd been a mug. Did I have to write it on my forehead now? Even Milo and Otis trusted him. And mum and dad were still at the hospital... I honestly felt the urge to cut myself again.. just slice the pain away... but I had to think about my little boy who was sleeping in the room across the hall. I felt another salty tear trickle down my face. I just looked at the window. I needed Mum and Dad right now. 'Hey Grandma.' Oh no. Milo and Otis.. I wiped my tears and looked at the razor that was laying on the windowsill.... I was toying with the idea of harming myself.... my thoughts clouding my head... swirling... making me feel uneasy. I put the razor back on the windowsill and opened the bathroom door. I opened up my bedroom door and saw Issac fluttering his eyes.. 'Hi sweetie.' He rubbed his eyes. 'Mummy? When Granddad and Grandma coming home?' I smiled. 'I'm not sure  baby.' I picked him up and swayed him from side whilst brushing my hand through his soft, blonde hair. I was cuddling Issac when my phone bleeped. 

hey. missing you. Call me x Adam

Was he thick? He must be.... I  didn't want to talk to him right now... I started crying again. 'Mia? sweetheart?' I heard Gran call from downstairs. 'Yes Gran?' I stood outside my door. 'Your dad just called. Your mum and Perrie are fine. The doctors said she should be able to come tomorrow.' I smiled.. with a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach. 'Great.' I walked downstairs with Issac and he giggled. 'Lo Lo. Tis.' They looked at him and spread their arms out. 'You coming for a cuddle mate?' He jumped into Milo's arm whilst I sat down at the table... I was twisting the placemat around and around..... I love you  I love you.... HOW DARE YOU CHEAT ON ME?  You just decide to cheat on me with another girl? I told you things i'd never tell anyone... about me self-harming..... about Seth leaving me... he cheated on me too.... don't you remember me telling you that?  It probably SLIPPED your mind....'  Sis?' Milo was waving his hand in my face.... 'Are you alright?' I pulled my finger from the placemat. 'Yeah. I'm fine WHY DOES EVERYONE FEEL THE NEED TO ASK IF I'M OK?' I stood up and walked into the hallway... Milo came walking towards me... 'DON'T TOUCH ME! LEAVE ME ALONE MILO!' I ran upstairs and locked myself in the bathroom..... I cried and cried... 'Sweetheart? What's wrong darling?' I heard Issac crying and whimpering... 'JUST GO AWAY GRAN! PLEASE..... THAT'S ALL I ASK!' I heard her knock on the door again. 'Is everything ok sweetie?' Gran asked me.....  I cried.... 'No Gran.  The thing is..... Adam had a text from someone else... it was from a girl. I think he is or he has been cheating on me. It's breaking me Gran. I just wanna harm my own skin... I picked up a razor and I was SO close to pulling it across my skin... so close. But I didn't. I had that little flicker of hope... seeing Issac sleeping made me think of what I could lose. Seeing his little hands... Him breathing made me feel safe.' I heard Gran hush me like I was a little girl. I stood up and opened the bathroom door. Gran's arms wrapped around me... 'Hush now. Darling...' I looked at her and she held my hand. 'You, my stunning, gorgeous, bright granddaughter will get through anything. I'll be downstairs if you need anything.' 

I went and sat on my bed watching Issac.... bless him. I loved him. So much. My phone bleeped. It was Seth... I wonder what he wants? 

Hey. How are you?x How's my little man? 

I started to text back.... 

I'm hanging in there. xxx. Long story. Issac is good. I could come over if you want? You could see him for an hour. xxx

my phone pinged...

I'd love to. I'm on my own. See you in a bit xxx

I got my coat on and picked up Issac, trying not to wake him up as he was in a deep sleep. Milo and Otis saw me coming downstairs. 'Where are you off to?' I placed the blanket over Issac's legs to keep him warm. 'I'm just taking Issac to see Seth.' They raised their eyebrows... 'Oh come on guys! He just wants to see Issac. I'll be back as soon as.' They both opened the door and said they'd tell Gran i'd gone to a friend's house. 

I felt nervous... I had butterflies... seeing my ex and baby's father was not too appealing.... but I cooperated for Issac... He only lived down the road so he wasn't that far. 

I positioned the pushchair up on  the drive and knocked on.  That familiar face hit me like a ton of bricks... 'Hey. It's good to see you.' 

Author's note:

So guys? What do you think will happen with Seth and Mia now she knows what Adam has done? Hope you like this chapter. I thought i'd leave it on a bit of cliffhanger as I LOVE  to surprise people. Also wanted to say thankyou again for voting and leaving such lovely comments xxx. It means a lot to me. x

Lauren