A Daughter To Love.. (Amanda Mealing/Casualty Fanfiction)

Getting The Spark Back..

(Amanda's P.O.V)
I looked over and I saw Richard laying next to me... I'm guessing he finally decided to come home then? I wasn't bothered for now. I sat up and tied up my hair and started to get things ready. It was my first day back at work after having Perrie. "Morning baby girl. Are you up early just like your mummy?" She giggled.

I took my towel and went into the shower. Today was going to be a good day. I just had to focus on Perrie and the kids. I'd have that conversation with Richard when I was ready and in private. I stopped the shower and wrapped the towel around my body and walked into the bedroom. "Are you going to continue this silent treatment forever babe?" Richard sat up and I looked at him... "You know if you did something.. you'd be honest and tell me right? No matter what?" He walked over to me and looked at me.... I could barely look at him.. my stomach was doing somersaults. I felt sick.. I felt his hand lock with mine and his face filled with worry... "What did you think I was doing last night? Did you think I stayed late with some other woman?" I felt a tear pour from my eye..... This had happened before with my past relationships... I'd never been able to trust any man. Ever. Then I met Richard and he was like a breath of fresh air. He was always romantic, sweet, lovely, spontaneous.... he always made sure I was taken care of.. I looked after him. 8 years later, I called him my husband... and our 2 boys came along. I just couldn't go back to living in constant fear and having my insecurities take over my brain. I smoothed out my top and picked up Perrie. "I'll be downstairs. I'll see you later." He took my hand...

"Amanda! Wait.." I wiped a stray tear away.... I heard Mia coming downstairs... "Morning Mum. Morning little sis... how are you?" I gave Mia her bottle and she fed her. "Are you alright Mum? Have you been crying?" I smiled. Trying to fake my inner anger and hurt... "I'm fine sweetheart. What are you doing today?" She looked at me... "Well.. I've got an exam as I've been trying to study whilst Issac has been at nursery in the afternoon." She slowly took out the bottle from Perrie's mouth. "All done now sister. You was hungry." I smiled at her. "I'll see you later darling. I'm off to work now." Mia hugged me. "Just call me if you need to talk alright? Me, Milo and Otis are here for you. Dad is there too." I just got my stuff and carried Perrie.

I drove to work trying to focus on the day ahead. We was filming in Connie's office today and I was filming with Tom Chambers and it was a bickering session as Grace (played by Emily Carey) was not talking due to her brain injury. I got to work and I was greeted by Cathy. "Hi Amanda. How are You? Ah, is that who I think it is in the back seat?" I grinned. "Yes it is. Ah hello sweetie. Are you smiling for Mummy?" I looked at her. "Ahh! She's so cute Amanda!" She giggled and I took the handle of her car seat and I put my bag on my arm. "So, what are you filming today Cathy?" She smiled. "I've just got sences with Ricky Nixon who plays Peter and I've got sences with Derek all day. I walked on set and all the cast came walking towards the car seat.. "she's so cute." Amanda Henderson and Charles just stood there looking at her. I started walking to my dressing room when I saw Micheal our producer walk towards me.. "It's lovely to see you back Amanda. Congrats on the birth of your new little one. She's lovely." I stood there and said thankyou to Michel. I heard her giggle.. "Yes Mrs.. you've made mummy tired. Let's feed you before I go on set.' I sat and bottle fed her.. she looked up at me with those big, bright brown eyes. "Yes.. you are hungry aren't you?" She gurgled as she took her last sip of milk. "Ooo.. is that better?" She gurgled and I kissed her cheek. I put her back in her car seat and took her to the nursery that we had on set as some of the cast members had children. "Hi Helen. What time would you be finishing your shift?" She looked at her watch. "About 4pm. I could keep her for longer if you have extra sences to finish?" I looked at my watch. "I could text my daughter later to pick her up. I'll let you know later." She nodded and took Perrie. "Hello lovely girl." I took my phone and I saw a notification from Richard...

I really wanna explain. Just ring me later. X

I ignored the text. He was not going to ruin my day with his pointless words and lies. I just wanted to find out the truth in my own time. "Morning Amanda." Tom and Charles walked towards me. 'Morning guys. I've just dropped Perrie in the on set nursery and now I'm ready to rehearse and get filming. I took my script and went into the outside space as 'Jacob' was trying to talk to 'Connie' about everything that's happened and that he's sorry. "Charles. I'd like you to just sit by Amanda and sit and like gaze at her for a few minutes and then start talking." The whole crew went quiet and we heard Micheal say Action...