A Daughter To Love.. (Amanda Mealing/Casualty Fanfiction)

On Set....

(Amanda's P.O.V)
It was 6am! "Everyone up! School holidays are over. Mia... you get extra time as you have to sort Isaac out. Boys, you've got football practice after school right?" They yelled yes. "Morning sweetheart. Have fun at work. I've got to go." Richard kissed me and I got my bag ready. "See you later Nanna." Isaac shouted. "Bye my darling." Mia came and kissed me on the cheek. "I'll update you on Newcastle later."

9.00am...

I got to work and I put on my outfit and I heard a knock on my dressing room door. Who is it?" I didn't hear anything. "It's Staff Nurse Masters." I laughed.."Only you Charles would say that!" He hugged me. "Are you alright this morning Amanda? How's Mia, Richard and the kids?" I smiled. "They are all great thank you. You're here early." He sat down and asked about Mia and the boys and Isaac. "He's just wonderful. He's always calling for Nanna and Grandad." He laughed. "I've got the new scripts and I'm just say... Amanda, they are amazing! Connie is in for a tough time..." I smiled. "Wanna have a quick read through?" I nodded. "Alright then."

I stood up and turned away from Charles... "Connie. We have to talk about this. I know you may not want to talk to me right now." I cut in and turned around. "You're spot on there Jacob! I don't want to even think about talking to you.. just because I'm carrying your child. Remember your affair with someone else? Remember me wondering where you were? Grace used to ask for you every single night. How I wasted my time on you.."

"Connie. I was lonely. Things were not right between us and you know that." I turned and a tear escaped my face. "I'm actually done having this conversation. I need to figure out what to do for MY child. I can't do this with you Jacob.." He walked towards me and placed his hand on my shoulder... I took his hand off my shoulder. I cried... "I'm tired. Please leave." It went silence.. then we just laughed and I high-fived Charles.."Great work!" He smiled at me.."We are meant to be filming tomorrow and Tom is coming too. That's the other part I forgot to tell you about.." I smiled. "So it's either Jacob or Sam? Wow!" Charles left my dressing room and I had some water. I suddenly felt this wave of Nausea come over me. "Woah..." I quietly said to myself. I held onto the edge of the table when I saw Cathy and Jane pass my dressing room. "Are you alright Amanda? You look a bit peaky." Cathy and Jane ran into my dressing room. "Yes. I'm fine. I just felt a bit sick.. that's all. I'm probably coming down with something."

They gave me a bottle of water and sat down with me.."That felt so weird." They each rubbed their hand and my shoulders. "So? How are things with you two? I've been so busy with my own hectic home life... we've not caught up." They both laughed.  "Things are good with me. My daughter is good. She's missing me though. She's at school studying her GCSE'S." Cathy smiled at me and Jayne. "Same with my sons. They are busy studying. But they are good thank you. Are you feeling any better Amanda?" I took a deep breath... drinking more water. "Yes I'm fine. I'll see you guys in the canteen in a bit?" They got up and nodded.."Just call us if you need us." I sat down and checked my phone. A text from Mia had come through.

You alright mum?xx tried ringing you but it went to answerphone. Call me please. Xx

Richard had also texted me too. And the boys...

Hey hun.. Xx. Are you alright? You headed straight out the door this morning.. worried about you. Call me x

Hi mum. Hope you're enjoying your day. Xx. Miss you! See you later😊x Otis❤

Hey Mum. Missing you. Guess what? Got on the football team didn't I?x will call you later. Milo x

I turned off my phone and just sat there... feeling sick again. What even happened last night? I really just wanted to go home.. I got my bag and Cathy and Janye ran up to me.."Could you do me a favour and tell Micheal I've had to go home? I'm really not feeling very well..." they both nodded. 'Of course. Did you wanna talk to us?" I nodded. They both followed me into my dressing room and I shut the door...

"I think I'm possibly pregnant... me and Richard had a moment last night and I don't think we used protection and I have a feeling I've missed my period and I'm so, so scared. I couldn't even reply to Mia's text earlier.. the boys texted earlier too. I just wanna go home.. I don't even want to get a test as I really don't want to face the truth..." They both hugged me tightly.. "Awww Amanda. It's OK. We'll be here if you want to come back... but we suggest that you get a test." I got up and said bye to them and drove them to the chemist...

12.00pm

I drove to the chemist.. a million things running through my head... I'll just not tell Richard and the boys and Mia..I could  just let my little baby grow inside me for months.. I can do that. I'll just say I'm not well. But then he'll see right through me... My phone rang. It was Richard. "Yes hun? I decided to leave work early. I wanted to come home for a lie down. I just had a bit of a headache." He took a deep breath. "Are you sure? Where are you? I'll come and meet you." Anger was bubbling up inside me. I could feel my tears coming through.. "Oh for goodness sake Richard! I'll be home later! Just go away!" I ended the phone call, got out the car, slammed the door and went into the chemist.

I walked into the chemist.. looking at all the pregnancy tests and I picked one up. My brain scanned through my previous 2 pregnancies with Milo and Otis and my adoption process with Mia and I felt warm and happy inside. I purchased the test and made my way home.

It was quiet when I got in so I went upstairs and took the test in the bathroom.. as usual, you had to wait a few minutes. 

The feeling was eating away at my stomach... I was craving food right now. I just didn't know what I wanted.  The timer bleeped. I closed my eyes and picked up the test...

Pregnant 1-2 weeks...

Now I was frightened...