A Daughter To Love.. (Amanda Mealing/Casualty Fanfiction)

Beach Day..

(Amanda's P.O.V)
"Morning everyone!" I heard Perrie giggle. "Where is my little girl?" I walked into the hallway of the house and looked around in the kitchen, living room and bathroom. "Baby.. I can't find you..." I heard a giggle coming from the girls room.. "Hello baby!" I picked her up and her hair was swaying in front of her face. "Hi mummy. Are we going to make breakfast? Mia is still sleeping mummy." I kissed her forehead and she went and sat on her chair. "Shall I make pancakes baby?" She giggled and nodded. "Yes please mummy!" I got out the ingredients when I saw Richard walking towards me... "Hello gorgeous. Hey Perriewinkle." He kissed her forehead and started making the pancake mix. "Was you alright last night honey? You didn't come to bed until late." I continued to stir the mix in the bowl and I felt Richard's hand glide around my back and his eyes sparkled at me.. "Come on darling. I know something's up. You can talk to me." I finished off Perrie's pancake and I placed it on a plate and gave it to her. "Thankyou Mummy." I walked back over to the countertop and cleaned up. "So?.. are you going to tell me what's up?" I carried on cleaning. "I'll tell you later. In private." I heard Mia and Adam walk in with Issac. "Morning guys! Hey little man. Did you want a pancake?" I walked towards Mia and I took Issac and sorted some breakfast out for him. "Morning Adam. Are you alright?" He nodded.. "Yes I'm fine thankyou. I think my mum and dad are still asleep. Regan and Jake were slowly starting to wake up as I woke up." We all laughed and had breakfast.

"Is that yummy darling?" Mia was talking to Issac and he was laughing with Perrie. "Very yummy mummy." Dad kissed mum and she smiled. 'That cheered me up a bit. I was thinking we could take a trip to the beach. It's nice outside and the kids would love the sea and stuff." Me and Adam looked at one another.. "That would be lovely. We've always wanted to take a nice walk along the beach. I can always help my mum and dad sort out my brothers." Adam held my hand underneath the table and I carried eating my breakfast. "I'm so happy you're feeling better sweetheart." Mum got up and cleaned the plates and started washing up.

"I'm feeling a bit better. I'm still a bit on edge..." Adam squeezed my hand. That was like a silent signal. He didn't have to verbally ask if I was ok.

I gave my plate to mum and cleaned Issac up. "You're one mucky puppy!" Adam tickled him and kissed his forehead. "We'll go and get ready mum. See you in a bit dad." We went upstairs and I got Issac's clothes ready. I got his new little blue top with his little shorts and little black slip on shoes. "Babe?" Adam stood near my door. "Yes handsome?" He smiled at me. "I love you so much." I blew him a kiss. "Ditto. Alright darling!" I picked up Issac and he giggled and laughed as I tickled him. "Let's go and get ready hey?"

I gave Issac a wash and thought about how proud I was of myself for standing up to Seth during our phone call last night. 8 months on... I'm engaged, I have a wonderful family, a gorgeous little boy and I'm stable. "All done mummy?" Issac's eyes looked into mine. "I think so baby." I sorted his hair out.. he had lovely, wispy blonde hair. I took him into the bedroom and placed him on the bed.  I was going to wear my leggings with a white top. I got myself ready and heard Regan and Jake playing..  "Vroom! Vroom! Regan! You go over there. I'll go here." I laughed to myself.. they are so cute. They loved Issac too. "Mummy." I looked at Issac as he stood there.. "Dam Dam downstairs?" I nodded and giggled.. I brushed my hair and sorted my other clothes and went downstairs..

"Are we ready for the beach little man?" Adam tickled him and kissed his cheek. "Hey lovely. Are you ready? My brothers are outside with my mum and dad." I kiseed him.."Yes I'm ready. Are my brothers outside?"

I looked through the window..."We are ready sister!" Perrie giggled and mum, dad, Tina and Clive all stood outside as I sorted out the food and drinks. Mum locked up and we took the cars down to the beach. Adam was joking about Newscatle and teaching Mum how to talk like a Geordie!😂 "Aye!" Mum made us all laugh. Perrie started singing Little Mix and I high fived her! "I've taught my little sister well! "These wings are made to fly!" Perrie sang along with me. Milo and Otis were talking about me.. "You and Pez are like the best sisters ever!" I took his cheeks and squeezed them! "Awww you guys! You two are the best too." We arrived at the beach and Perrie high fived Issac. "Zac Zac. Beach!" He giggled.. "come on then sweetheart." I took him and Adam held him as Me, mum, Dad, Clive and Tina sorted stuff out. "Mummy? Mummy?" Regan and Jake got the beach ball and played with it. "Yes darlings?" Tina walked towards Regan and tickled him. "Mummy! Mummy!" She stopped tickling him. "Be careful baby." Regan and Jake ran along to the sand and played with the ball. Adam and me walked as Issac was babbling to himself.

"I love you so much Miss Chase..." Adam whispered into my ear and I gazed at him. "I love you too Mr Nelson.." Perrie yelled and I looked at her.. "Woah little sister!" She laughed and Issac giggled and I put him down and he played with the sand. I sat down next to him and he took the sand and he threw it.. "He's so cute Mia." Regan and Jake played with him and they saw Adam take his top off. "I'm going for a swim gorgeous!" I liked the look of his abs...💖😍

"Sweetie? Hello?" Mum was walking towards me waving her hand in front of my face.. "Mm yeah?" I blushed.. "Sorry mum. Adam was just showing off." She giggled. "Well... I kinda told your dad about how I've been feeling and he's been really sweet and calm. We went for a little walk which was really sweet." I smiled and watched on as Adam swam along in the water.. "He's great at swimming Clive. Did he learn from a young age?" Clive looked at me and nodded. "Yes he did. Me and his mum here used to take him when he was little. Great little swimmer he is." He came out of the water and he wrapped the towel around his chest and his body was all like.. wet and it looked amazing.. he walked towards me and bent down. "Miss me gorgeous?" He kiseed my cheek as mum and dad watched on with Tina and Clive. My cheeks flushed... "Erm.. yes I did." All the parents laughed and he ran inside!😂😛 he was so cute. "Mummy? Mummy?" Issac kissed my cheek as we went back inside. "I miss Daddy..." Would it ever get easier? The phone call flashes back in my head. The anger... he just infuriates me. I just cuddled my little boy until he stopped crying.. "Awwww baby I'm sorry. Daddy just isn't ready right now." I had to make up little white lies because Seth couldn't be bothered. I wasn't putting my health in danger again for my awful ex...

We went into the bedroom and he held onto me.. clinging for dear life.  I continued to shush him as he whimprered... he really was feeling sad about Seth. It just wasn't fair. "Alright darling.. It's ok... It's alright." I stroked his back and held him up and cuddled him like he was a new born baby all over again.. he was just a toddler now. "Mummy.. Mummy." Tears sprung in my eyes. "It's ok baby.. It's alright." I closed off the room door and just tried to breathe. Breathe in and out. In and out.

He eventually settled and fell asleep in my arms. My finger ran along his cheek.. "I'll always love you darling. The whole family loves you. We will be ok." I kissed his forehead and laid him down on the bed and carefully placed the blanket over him. I closed off the door and sighed as I walked downstairs. Mum was in the kitchen making some food whilist the rest of the family were outside relaxing. I sat down at the table and took a deep breath. "Hey. Hey. Is Issac Ok?" Tears formed in my eyes... they felt salty. She walked over and gave me a big hug. "I just feel so bad for Issac when he asks for Seth and the conversation that I had with him the other night just keeps replaying over and over again in my head. "I've been so good with being open with my health and opening up instead of flying of the handle..." Mum looked at me and took my hand. "I know you're probably feeling lots of mixed up emotions.. but the most important person in this is Issac. He knows who his daddy is... he knows who's been there for him. Pretty big difference hey?" Adam came into the kitchen and he just hugged me. I held on tight.. not letting him go. "I love you Adam." Mum looked at me... "Thankyou." I mouthed at her. Everything was going to be ok.

We were going to be ok.