When he loved me.. ~Victuri MPreg~

Yuri

I opened the door slowly and peered out. My raven hair fell in front of my pale face as my tear filled eyes looked trough the tiny gaps. My mom had been telling me to get a haircut but I've been way to busy... now with Victor... I won't have time for anything.

My big doe eyes clashed with the wide eyes of Victor. He stood in my doorway, his hands pressed against his side.

"Yuri.." he breathed, as his silver hair rested against his rose dusted cheeks.

I felt my heart skip a beat when he said my name. It felt as though nothing ever changed between us and that we never grew apart.

"V-Victor? I-I..." I started but cut myself off. I knew he had spotted me but I had nothing to say to him. The sudden feel of dread consuming me as I though about what he could say about katsu. He had all the right reasons to be mad at me.

"You don't have to say anything... yuri... I don't know why you were at that competition, but you were just the person I wanted to see.... I need to talk to you" Victor says in almost a pleading tone. I had never seen Victor look this vulnerable.

"Fine... but not here..." I sighed giving into his plea. His ocean blue eyes lit up with hope as a small smile creeped onto his pink lips.

"Alright! As long as I can talk to you I don't mind where we go!" He says in a more excited tone.

I stepped out of the comfort of my parents house where I had hid myself and my son for years. My body was smacked with the cold air of the evening as I closed the door behind me giving away any form of warmth that was coming from the small homely place.

I wrapped my small arms around myself in attempt to keep myself warm. Victor noticed this and gave a sympathetic expression.

I knew that if he had a jacket he would have taken it off and wrapped it tightly around my shoulders. He would have rubbed the tops of my arms with his larger hands in attempt to warm me up and then pull me closer to his body heat.

I knew he would have done that. But this time it was different.

The coldness of the air mixed with the awkward atmosphere seemed to be suffocating. Victor could feel it too. I could tell by the way he scratched the back of his neck. I let my eyes fall on the black costume he was wearing still. A smile threatened to form on my lips at the thought of him leaving so quickly for me.

No yuri. You have a son now. Nothing will be the same.

I let my gaze fall to my feet as we walked towards the small beach at the edge of Hasetsu. The sound of the seagulls squawking felt comforting in a time like this. It broke the silence.

Once we arrived at the small spot on the beach at the edge of the water victor came to a halt. I stopped beside him and looked up at him. His silver hair was swaying gently with the ocean breeze and his eyes watched the small waves curl up and over each other before finally landing peacefully near our feet.

The sound of the waves were relaxing as I followed his gaze out. The feeling of being there made the situation seem less awkward to me, and more natural. A small smile formed on my face as I thought about my son playing around in the water for the first time.

He looked so happy as he played along with the triplets splashing and chasing them. Suddenly my heart sank.

When Victor finds out about katsu that all will change. He will want to see him regularly and he will no longer be with me for good. What if he took him to Russia?!

No yuri you can't think like that. Victor would never do that to you. Would he?

"Yuri... I've been wanting to talk to you" Victor finally said breaking the silence between us.

I glanced up at him. "About what?" I asked my heart racing in pure fear that he may be mad at me.

"About us... I don't know why you broke us up but I just wanted to see you again... I haven't been able to think about anything but you.." he admitted looking down at me.

"O-oh" I managed to choke out my surprised gaze falling to my feet. Does this mean he still loves me?

"You don't have to say anything. I just want us to be friends and hopefully work things out between us" he says sighing as his hand glided through his hair.

I looked up quickly and nodded a small smile on my lips. "Yes! I'd like that!" I said quickly not thinking about what could happen with katsu.

"Great!" Victor says smiling down at me.

After a while of catching up he walked me back to my parents house. It felt almost like we never broke up and it was back to old times.

"I'll see you tomorrow yuri!" He says smiling as he walked away. I waved him goodbye before walking into the house.

"Papa!" Katsu exclaimed running up to me and jumping up into my arms. I smiled widely and picked my son up holding him close to my chest as I walked him up to bed.

As I laid him down in his small toddler bed I tucked some of his hair behind his ear laying a small delicate kiss on his head.

"I love you papa" Katsu said tiredly as he looked at me with lidded eyes, already half asleep.

"I love you too little piggy" I said back fondly as I got up and left him to sleep.

Katsu I love you more than anything I the world...

That's why I need to keep victor away from you